The Lyon For Me

Eleven

I fell to my knees in pain. My dad caught me and I smiled "At least I finally got to see you again... Mal" I whispered he stood over me in seconds tears visible in his eyes.

"Don't say anything keep your strength" I hummed in response my vision beginning to blur. I started to breathe heavy and my Dad kept telling me to calm down.

But I started to truly panic when I realized Lola was in the room. I reached out to where I last saw her but Jamal put my hand down "I want her to see you but not like this" he was right the last memory my baby should have of me is me happy and laughing.

I nodded letting him know I agreed with him. Soon my works slipped into darkness. And my last tears were shed. I was content there was no other business I felt I had except to make sure that my family moved on and that they were happy.

I woke up to my surprise I woke up. I looked around to see Jamal singing to a sleeping Lola "In the jungle the mighty jungle the mighty jungle the lion sleeps tonight..." I smiled and started to sing "In the jungle the quiet jungle the lion sleeps tonight" I sung catching Jamal's attention.

He carefully moved Lola and ran over to sit next to me "Why'd you stop singing I wasn't done" I said making him chuckle. He looked as bad as he did when I came back from the first time I left him.

"Why are you worried about finishing songs at a time like this" he said tears slipping out of his eyes "So what's the verdict am I allowed to leave or am I to be confined to one space" he laughed though at the same time crying.

I reached up as best I could to touch his face. My dearest Jamal I'm gonna miss you. I thought I knew from his reaction it wasn't good.

I heard a tiny whimper from in front of me and looked over to see Lola with tears streaming down her face. I reached out to her and she carefully climbed up on the bed.

"Mommy are you gonna be OK" she asked me through her tears "Yes I'm gonna travel to a far away to a land that you can't visit until it's time to... But Mommy's going to fine" I whispered into her hair.

My Dad came in with a woman I'd never seen before and I sat up a little more well with the help of Jamal and Lola I sat up. Jamal took Lola to go get something to eat "Hi Daddy" I said reaching out to him. He hugged me crying into my shoulder.

"Oh baby girl I'm so sorry I didn't I didn't want that to happen I really" I hushed him and switched my gaze over to the girl who was also crying "This is your sister well half sister.... Leigh-Anne" I smiled pulling her close I needed to do something for me.

"Watch over Jamal and Lola for me OK.... When I'm gone Lola's gonna need a mother figure while Mal grieves" she smiled and nodded "I promise it's the least I can do....Thank you for saving him he's all I have" she said side glancing at him "Same here.... Now go bond with Lola" she smiled and left but not before carefully hugging me.

My dad watched my face studying me closely "You did that purposely" he said suspiciously "You trying to put people together" I sighed "Jamal will never hang out with another woman because of me and I don't want that for Lola living without a Mom has serous side effects on a child so... Now that won't happen" I said proudly even though my reasoning wasn't solely about Lola's well being.

Jamal needs to move on from me and as soon as Leigh-Anne walked in I could tell she was what he needed. My father smirked "How is it that even in your death bed you're thinking about other people" I laughed a little then coughed I knew my time was coming.

I asked my father to send Jamal in but not Lola. He obliged sending in Jamal and leaving shortly after. Mal say by me but didn't look me in the eye. I reached over and touched his hand "Baby look at me... I need you to look and listen" he looked up my heart broke.

It was like he was dying instead of me. And it was Jamal was losing apart of himself and I was praying to God that Leigh-Anne would able to bring it back like I hoped.

He touched my face and sighed "Jamal I need you to take Lola no one else... Especially Lucious... I um want you to get Lola that puppy she's been asking me for and tell it was a late Christmas present.... And finally Jamal promise me that you'll move on after me please" he shook his head and let go of my hands.

"No!!! I'm not gonna do that.... I'll do anything for you but not that" he started rampaging so I did what I had to I took out all the things binding me to this bed and stood up. That got his attention "Listen I love you idiot and I want you to be happy not sad because your mourning over me" I slowly made my way over to him using him to help me stay straight.

"You are my everything Jamal and to see lose that special part of you that I can see your already losing is not something I wish to witness" he kissed me then my cheek and hugged me.

"I love you too" I think he said but I could barely hear him. My vision was gone and my hearing all I could do was rub his back slightly and kiss his cheek. He would have his happy ending it just wouldn't be with me.