Life has its capacity to inflict despair and pain. Thinking of getting hurt seems too scary even though you knew that you have been hurt too many times. Perhaps, it is just too much to take the moment of stressing out of such things and pained you. There were just some moments when you might be sulking yourself with the imagination of living a fairytale life. In there, you tend to feel so relaxed and getting rainbow in the sky of serenity.
But reality would harshly tap your sense of sanity and would lead you back to your present. Therefore, you would do some meditation and end up with the thinking that it is fine getting hurt rather than drowning yourself with waves of happiness which seems so surreal. In there, you could say that you're somehow living because you could still feel pain.
