Alan’s POV
I walked back to the bunk area and could hear a soft crying sound. I tapped on the curtain to mine and Erin’s bunk. There was a pause in the sniffling and I heard some rustling.
“Go away…” She said softly. I could almost hear the pain in her voice. A frown pulled at the corners of my lips and I didn’t move.
“What’s wrong babe?” I asked. She wasn’t like this before going to the hospital. What happened?
“Nothing… I’m just tired and I hate the medication I’m on right now…” She said and I rolled my eyes.
“Really Erin? You’re crying. Obviously something is wrong or you wouldn’t be crying. Come on, talk to me. Please?” I asked and started to slide the curtain to our bunk open.
“I don’t want to talk about it.” She said and rolled over onto her side so she wasn’t facing me. I slid in the bed behind her and wrapped my arms around her. I closed the curtain so it was just us in the darkness. I laid my head in the crook of her neck and gave her a soft kiss.
“Please? I don’t want you to cry anymore. Tell me what’s wrong.” I said snuggling into her neck more.
“You’re going to hate me…” She said turning her head to hide it in the pillow. I let out a small laugh.
“I could never hate you. Just please, tell me what’s wrong.” I said again still trying to get closer.
“I’m pregnant.” She whispered and another sob racked through her body. I held her close as my eyes went wide. I never let go even with the wave of shock sending through my body.
“Why would I hate you for that? It’s not your fault. Look, Erin, I love you. I want to be with you and although a baby might complicate this a little it won’t end it. I’m not like that.” I said trying to comfort her. I knew a baby would complicate tour schedules and she wouldn’t be able to go on tour as often but it’s not like it was horrible. She turned to face me and snuggled into my chest and I held her close kissing the top of her head.
“I’m scared. I don’t think I can handle being a mom.” She said and wiped a tear from her cheek. I shushed her and rubbed her back.
“I’m sure we will be great parents. We can take it to shows and raise it on awesome music.” We both laughed. “Look, I’m not leaving. We can have this kid and we can figure it out as we go. I promise. I love you.” I said as she looked up at me and smiled. I leaned down and kissed her and wiped away one of her tears with my thumb. “I love you.” I said again and hugged her.
