soy luna and bia one shots!

afraid that I won't make it, but if I never step outside - matteo balsano

song recommendation while reading this: change my clothes by alec benjamin and dream slowed and reverb (linked above)

The sunlight leaked through Matteo's room as he sighed in frustration. This was his 5th attempt at writing a song, but nothing came to his mind. He collapsed onto his bed, defeated as he looked around. His room was a mess, crumbled pieces of paper lay all through his room, clothes scattered around, old wrappers lay silently in on the floor. He hadn't eaten in days, he was sweaty and tired, the Buenos Aires heat killing him. But Matteo didn't care, all he could think about was her.

And he hated himself for it.

Everything was her fault, she didn't care. Matteo gave her everything, but she was never satisfied. He lost a record deal, and she didn't care. The only thing Luna cared about was herself and Simon. It was never Matteo, it was Simon. Hell, she had even run off to Mexico with her little amigo while Matteo was stuck in Buenos Aires.

"I should've just gone to Oxford with Gaston," Matteo cursed throwing his guitar to the other side of his bed as he sprawled his body over his bed, completely done. He couldn't think straight, he couldn't get up to do a single task, he was defeated.

All because of a 5'2 brunette with beautiful green eyes.

The slight static of the radio hummed as he opened the curtains, the sun blinding his eyes as he cursed under his breath. Matteo could slightly see his reflection in the windowpane, his eyes were dark with bags and his hair was ruffled and messy.

"Coming up next on the radio, a new song released by Content Creator Dream and Singer-Songwriter Alec Benjamin, called Change My Clothes." The radio spoke. Matteo cringed at how loud the radio blared. Before he could turn it off, the song's intro started to play as Matteo scoffed. He hated mainstream pop, especially from youtubers.

However, this caught him off guard.

"I don't lack imagination, I'm just too scared to try. Afraid that I won't make it, but if I never step outside."

Matteo sighed as he grabbed his guitar off the bed, starting to strum along with the song. This would really help him with song inspiration.

"Of my comfort zone, here in my home. I'll never know, where I could go. "

Matteo watched from his window as he saw some teenagers laughing along the street, having the time of their lives. Oh, how Matteo wished that were him. Sure, Matteo was the most popular student at Blake, but he barely had any friends. His only real friend was an ocean and continent away.

"It's worth it to make some mistakes, you miss all of the shots that you don't take."

Matteo choked at the lyrics. He had made too many mistakes to go back. Everyday Matteo regretted everything he had done. He let his dumb stuck-up persona get in the way of who he really was.

"Every time, I think you've changed Matteo; you disappoint me. You're just the same chico fresa I've always known. You can't change Matteo." Luna spat. "You know for once, why can't you accept me for who I am?" Matteo snapped back.

Luna always painted the blame on him, no matter how much he tried to convince himself he wasn't selfish, he always had a voice in his head telling him, "You don't deserve Luna, you're not good enough."

"I really wanna, change the world but can't change my clothes. Wanna, find and girl but can't find my phone."

Matteo spent all him time; it was with her. They were happy but they couldn't last. Not with their personality always head-butting the others'. But look at Matteo now. He hadn't seen the light in days. He couldn't get over Luna, he knew Luna didn't feel the same way. She was probably at the beach swimming in the ocean, laughing with Simon.