The School of Lost Causes

Chapter 6

The next week flew by in a blurry haze. Getting up going, eating breakfast, smiling at Blake, eating lunch, avoiding Noah and Jax, laughing with Tessa, going to classes, eating dinner, doing the giant amounts of homework, getting a water delivery and getting in to bed almost falling asleep immediately. The weekend consisted of catching up on anything we might have missed in class and studying.

I was so busy that it took me until Wednesday the next week to notice that a few people from "our group" weren't around anymore. Neither in the cafeteria nor in class. And then it hit me... Our "grace period" was officially over.
"Helloooo? Earth to Roxanne?" My eyes  focused on Tessa sitting in front of me eating her cereal. "Come on girl you zoned out... again. What was it about this time?"  I felt my cheek heating up. I cleared my phone befor answering. "I just realized that our grace period is over... we can't fuck up anymore." She smiled and took my hand. "Don't worry about it we don't even have time to fuck up."  I suppressed a laugh and nodded. "True. I guess we are fine then."

We grabbed our now empty trays and put them away before heading to our first class. Of course it was the class we shared with the boys but their efforts to talk to me have died down the last week so I wasn't to worried. We got there and sat down in our usual spots in the back of the classroom. As the lesson started I noticed that Noah and Jax were late. Fantastic why now that grace period has ended. Trying to focus on the lesson I focus my gaze back onto the board quickly copying everything that was on it.

The entire lesson passed and neither of them showed up. Okay now I'm worried. As the worry slowly spiraled into panic I felt someone squeeze my hand. I looked to my left side and saw Tessa. Her eyes were still focused on the teacher but her hand was firmly grasping mine. I sqeezed back signaling to her that it was okay to let go but she didn't budge. Even as the teacher started writing on the board again she didn't let go. Only then did I notice that she was left handed. We kept our hands locked together for the entire lesson. Only when it was time to pack up did she release my hand. We quickly made our way out of the classroom and to our room. Luckily we had a free period now.

We sat in silence until Tessa asked what I was dreading to say out loud. "Do you thing the boys got thrown out." My mind was racing 100 miles an hour and I had no way of stopping it. "Oh no no no no no. Stay with me Rox. Do not freak. They are fine just I a diffrent part of the school. Okay. Rox please breath"
Concentrating on her words I took a deep breath held it for a couple of seconds and exhaled slowly again waiting a few second befor breathing in and repeating. It was a technique I learned back home. Panic attacks weren't a new thing for me so I knew how to hand them. Mostly anyway. "I-I'm okay. I'm okay." She nodded and gave me a small smile. "Good... good because I think we should go and pack our things for our next class." It was my time to nod and we got our books and headed out.

The rest of the day went by with little to no talking. Right as I finished my homework there was a knock on the door. I sighed and looked at the bathroom door silently wishing that I had gone first to shower... I got up and opened it only to be confronted with two beautiful blue eyes and a mop of black hair. "Hey Roxy I got the water for you guys." I bit my lip and took the bottles. "Are you Allright? You look a bit pale." I considered just spilling my guts and crying my eyes out in his arms but instead I but on a fake smile and nodded "I'm fine... just tired." He looked me up and down and frowned. "If you say so.. but no one's here.. no one would know If we talked more than for a few seconds." I couldn't stop my mouth befor the words came flying out. "Two friends of mine were sent away from this part of the school... I-i just.." Fighting tears I took a deep breath looking away from him. "O-oh.. that sucks.."

There was silence and I half thought he had just walked away but then he spoke again this time much more quietly. " w-would... would you like a hug?" Not thinking twice about it I nodded slightly only to be engulfed by two strong arms my face pressed against his chest. Sadly it was over way to soon and I felt cold. Looking up at him he waved a goodbye and walked away. I closed the door and turned around. That was when I realized why he was cut it off so quickly. Because there in the doorway of our bathroom stood a very shocked Tessa.

"What the actual fuck Rox? How... what... why?" I put her water bottle on her desk and say down on my bed. "He came by with our water.. he noticed I wasn't doing okay and gave me a hug. That was it." She nodded notice my obvious discomfort and sat down on her bed grabbing her bottle and immediately downing the thing. I followed suit and grabbed my pj's. It was then that I decided I was to tired to shower and quickly changed. Falling into bed and asleep within seconds.

The next month or so we're more of the same. Only with the addition of tests and quizzes that had us studying even harder. I did good on most of them, at least with the help of Tessa constantly reminding me to focus and explaining things I didn't understand. We were on our way to our room. Both of us had our lunch with us since we ate in our room these days. I mean that was were our books were. And that is what we needed to study, which was all we did in our free time these days. I sat down in my desk char and opened my fresh history book taking a bit out of my sandwich.

" Oh shit I forgot my bag in the cafeteria. I'll be right back you go ahead and start" and with that she was out od the door. A sigh escaped my lips as I turned the page staring at the words as if it was some alien language. When the door got kicked open and two men in suits with the school logo on the pocket came rushing in.