Grow As We Go

XXXVIV.

LISA

August 30

I am currently on my way to shoot a variety show, specifically Jessi Showterview. Apparently, they added it 'cause they thought it'll be a good place to promote since it's quite famous internationally. I actually like the idea as well 'cause I'm quite comfortable with Jessi unnie.

I heard my phone blast off my mom's favorite song and I swear my eyes almost popped out of their sockets.

She's finally here!!

I immediately answered the call.

"Mommy!!!" I exclaimed a bit too loudly, 'cause my manager looked at me worriedly through the rear view mirror. I just sheepishly smiled at him.

"Mom, are you okay? I haven't heard from you for a long time!" All thoughts and emotions wash over me and my heart felt really heavy yet really light at the same time.

"You're not hurt anywhere right? You're okay right?" I'm honestly worried.

Once I heard her soft laughter, I instantly felt better. I just know she's in a much better situation right now.

"Aww my baby girl.. I missed you so much"

"then you should've called me! What happened, Mom? I'm sure something happened, don't even think about lying anymore" call it daughter's instinct, or idk I can just really sense it. I have always been the type to pay attention to the small details concerning the people I love so I'd notice right away.

My mom lightly sighed, "I was running around handling stuffs from my dad to your father, it also didn't help that the bigger family was also a mess at that time. On dad's funeral,I passed out. I guess everything just took a toll on me and my sickness went on for quite some time.I told them not to give you details about me or what happened, didn't want you to be bothered about all of it, not when you are more occupied with your own work"

I was right but damn I didn't expect it to be this huge

"Mom, you can't just do that. You know I'd be more worried if you did that, right? I was so lost all those days. Whatever it was, you know I would always make sure to help in any way.. "

"I know, sweetheart, and I'm sorry.."

I sighed, I never want to hear my mom apologize to me. It makes me feel like I should be the one apologizing, whatever it may be.

"mom, no.. its okay. Its all good, I'm better now" and its true. I somehow managed. I think talking about it helped a lot because now it feels like I'm not entirely alone anymore.

"yes I heard. Bambam's mom has been checking up on me a lot. Just recently, she said Bambam mentioned about you having a hard time. I'm really sorry, sweetie"

Bambam? but I haven't heard from him for quite some time now. How would he know?

ooohh is this some bestfriend's connection? hoho I should give that dude a call soon.