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Like a camera flash, lightning fluttered through my eyelids before it was followed by a loud crackling sound mixed with thunder. While my senses were slowly giving in to the surroundings, the first thing I saw was the sage colored walls. The gloomy weather didn't give justice to its powdery color.

Today was like any other day except it wasn't. Today is the start of my trauma, mental breakdowns in the shower and sudden panic attacks on random places and of course insomnia. I gulped my tears away while I think of those things. If I was just cautious none of these would've happened. Tears threaten to fall again so I sat up and almost lost my breath when I saw something at my side.

Taehyung.

He was sleeping next to me and I didn't notice. My cheeks burned off the coldness that wrapped my skin once. He looks pretty, too pretty to be sleeping next to me.

If this was a normal day, I'd probably be thrilled to see you here.

Last night if you didn't came, last night could've been my last. And it hurts because it would've been Mori's last as well. I bit my lip so hard it tasted rust. I feel like crying again.

I got off the bed to distract myself and saw a glass door covered with white curtains. The closer I get I heard some noises like beads rolling back and forth. I slid the canvas curtains to the sides and pushed the door. I was then welcomed by a cold sweeping wind laced with rain droplets hitting my face, mostly cheeks. Below me lies the cerulean ocean with hints of whites and gray undertones; a sign of aggressive waves.

The wind didn't help instead it fogged up my vision and made it easier for my tears to fall.

I sobbed.

It's my fault, it's my fault if only I told them. If only I stayed home if only I wasn't so careless. The people that I care for like Mori would have been alright.

My chapped lips became salty when a lost tear rolled on it. Breathing makes my rib feel sore I wish it would stop hurting. Or rather I wish I would stop breathing.

Something warm snaked my waist it startled me. I didn't notice Taehyung just woke up probably because I was tangled in my own thoughts or maybe he moves quietly, it's either of those.

"Good morning." He whispered in my ear after he peck a kiss on my cheeks. His voice sounded like crusty toast.

"Oh hi, morning." I almost couldn't say a word.

We were quiet for a good few seconds when I just started bawling my eyes out. The silence made my thoughts grow louder in my head and I didn't know what else to do but cry.

Taehyung noticed it and held the sides of my waist to turn me in front of his direction. My tears weren't a hindrance to not notice the worried expression drawn in his face.

His warm caloused hands wiped my tears away then taking me to a warm embrace.

"Shh, it's okay it's not your fault." He whispered while patting my shivering back.

"I'm so s-sorry.. it's just so frustrating t-that all I do is just bother... the p-people around me." Hiccups interrupted my breathing making it harder for me to tell him what I feel.

"No that's not true. You're not bothering everyone don't think like that to yourself, hm? If I could just hold a mirror in front of you everytime you smile you'd understand why you make my days better." Hearing those words while in a state of despair gave me hope and calmness. Sincerity oozed out of his mouth that no wonder why a lot of girls like him. All those time that I called him spoiled and a bastard made me feel guilty. Because truth is, he's far from that and it shows.