I'm not ready. // xingyun

Where are you?

     Chongyun was in a state of pure confusion. He didn't know how to react. The close feelings he used to hold for Xingqiu had already faded. It felt like time had stopped. "Xingqiu.." Chongyun started, "I'm sorry. I don't feel the same way.." Now it felt like time had stopped for Xingqiu. Huh? "What?? But! The time were we first met! you liked me back then, on the swings, right?" It felt like he was panicking. "Yeah, I did. But that was a long time ago. My feelings faded a few years later." Chongyun didn't wanna make eye contact. Xingqiu stood there, completely embarrassed. "Xingqiu, you're engaged. You can't do stuff like this, right?" Chongyun continued, "Shouldn't you think about Sena or your father when doing stuff like this? What if I had said yes? We wouldn't be able to make it public, do you know how that would feel..?" Now Xingqiu was angry. "Huh?" You could feel the tone change. "What do you mean how Sena or my father would feel?! Do you think I care about that?! It's MY life!" He started, "You know what. It doesn't matter. Bye Chongyun." Xingqiu started leaving. Yun wanted to try and stop him, but his legs wouldn't move. He was left alone, the sun rising completely.
     Day after day, Chongyun tried contacting Xingqiu, but he'd never respond. He walked around Liyue, even went to Xiangling's restaurant, but no one had seen him recently. He found himself at Xiangling's restaurant one last time. "You're here again?" Xiangling laughed, "No, he wasn't here." Chongyun sighed. "Schools starting soon.. Why is he ignoring me." He sat at the bar by Xiangling. She smiled, "maybe you got into a fight?" Chongyun didn't say anything, I mean, she was right. "It's fine if you don't wanna talk about it. Xinyans coming by later. Wanna stay?" She asked. "Sure. There's no one to hang with anyway." Xiangling laughed. "What's your schedule?" "I have Mr Roman for homeroom." He grunted. "For real? Me too!" She said, "Let's hope there's other people we know."