dear horcrux experiment number 4,
i loved you.
i loved you not.
the definition of love is a shakey thing (like my hands as they wiped your blood— they didn't shake for the others though). it can be a noun, verb, even adjective. extreme affection for something or someone. overwhelming passion for a person or thing. extreme affection based on sexual desire.
it seems i loved you not.
but love makes you do crazy things, and as i find myself searching for you in each number i go through and angrily cursing you for the lasting effects, i go more and more crazy. ached and drained and the love is getting to my brain
it seems. i can hear your laughter, loud even from below the ground and instead of the small joy it used to give me i now only feel hollow.are you cursing me out from your forever home? escape your cage and say it to me with a wild look in your eyes, love, we can reenact a fight i swear we had. and we can make up over cheap wine and stolen kisses and an i love you.
i'll say it back this time.
i promise.
"tom, darling, your lies have never fooled me," you'd say and i'd give you a grin because who knows if it's a lie (and the rest of my lies always fooled you).
absolutely a lie.
were you the type of girl to play the game with flowers? he loves me, he loves me not. silly and pesky muggle thing. games to test a foolish girl's heart and lead her to tears.
you were always beautiful in the worst of times.
i'll make sure to leave you a new bouquet soon so you can continue playing. i assume it'll be harder now though.
lily's, right?
she loved me.
and for eternity, alive or dead, you still will.
a fool with flowers,
tom riddle
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letters to a dead girl
Fanfictioni'm not expecting a reply, but at least the acknowledgment my letters are reaching your grave would be kind. or just watch me spiral with a smile. tom riddle 2021