Blue Flame

Ch 1: The Beginning Of The End

Its Been A Month Since Nya Left

I Didn't Have Much Hope That She'll Come Back

Me And Jay Were Hit Hard By It

Jay Suffered, But So Did I

Heck, I Might've Suffered More Than Him

My Little Sister, Who Was Pratically The Reason Why I Joined The Team In The First Place, Has Left

I Didn't Feel Like I Had Purpose Anymore

I Just Felt Like I Was Just . . . There

Everyone Else Has A Reason, I Don't Have Mine, At Least, Not Anymore

I Felt Things That I Never Felt Before

Is This . . . Grief?

Maybe, So I Guess This Is What Grief Feels Like

A Endless Pit Of Darkness From Which You Cannot Escape From, And The One Who Can Help You Escape Is Nowhere To Be Found

My Friends Continuously Ask Me And Jay If We're Ok

Jay Admits That He's Not Ok While I Usually Stay Silent Or Say Im Fine So They Can Leave Me Alone

The Amount Of Sympathy I Get Is Annoying

Most Of The Time I Stay In My Room, Cut Myself Off From Everyone

I Look At Old Pictures But That Upsetted Me Even More

I Miss Her Smile Most Of All

I Found It Rare To See Her Smile, And When She Did It Made My Life Infinitely Better

But That Felt Like A Long Time Again

The Monastery Feels Empty, Dead, And Depressing

Laughter That Filled The Halls Were No More

I Know That She Isn't Dead And All, But It Just Felt Like She Was

On The Rare Occasions That We Spoke To Each We Mainly Talked About Nya And Our Memories Of Her

Jay Usually Cried When We Did That And He Would Share His Memories With Lots Of Emotion

Me However, Just Stayed Quiet, Not Making Eye Contact With Anyone

Nobody Really Noticed, They Were Too Sad Themselves

Sad. . .

Sad Feels Like Too Small Of A Word To Describe Emotion Right Now

Depressed Seems To Fit The Bill Better

When They Do Notice However, I Just Stand Up And Walk Away From Everyone

Nobody Did Anything About It, They Must've Assumed That I Heard Enough Or That I Need Time Alone

Like I Haven't Done Enough Of That Already

The People Who Have Been Most Concerned About Me Were Zane And Lloyd

Cole Was Comforting Jay, They Are Best Friends After All

Zane And Lloyd Knew How Much Nya Meant To Me And Were Frequent Vistors To My Dark Pit Of Nothingness

Sometimes I Like Having Them Around, Sometimes I Want Them To Leave Me Alone

They Tried To Get Some Words Of Feeling Out Of Me But Failed, I Kept My Mouth Shut

Last Thing I Need Is More Sympathy

All I Want Is My Little Sister Back