Recently We've Been Going On Scouting Missions In Case Some Villains Were Planning Things
And I Had Mixed Reactions About Those
On One Hand, I Would Like To Go On Missions So I Can Redeem Myself A Bit
On The Other, However, I Don't Want To Go On The Missions Because I Feel Like My State Right Now Is Going To Impact The Team, In A Negative Way
So Guess What My Brilliant Mind Chose
It Chose To Stay
But Right Now, I Think That Decision Was The Final Straw For Them
No, They Didn't Get Mad At Me In Case You Were Wondering
They Now Know That Something Is Wrong With Me
Sometimes I Hate That They Know Me So Dang Well
So Nowadays, I Had More Frequent Visitors Than I Did Before
Which Led Me To Finally Lock My Door
And When They Had Meetings Or Just Talked, They Now Ask Me Questions And To Have Me Contribute To The Conversation
Most Of The Time I Wasn't Paying Attention And When They Call On Me I Just Look At Them Confused And Throw In A Yes Or An Agreeing Statement And Go Back To Being Antisocial
When I Do Pay Attention It Has Be Something Important That Catches My Attention
Like, Skylor, My Parents, Theories About Nya Coming Back, Trick Questions
Those Sort Of Things
But We Don't Talk About Those Things Much, So I Don't Listen
Sometimes Someone Would Drop In A Trick Question For Me To Catch Me Off Guard To Admitting Something I Didn't Want To Admit To
I Haven't Fallen In The Trap Yet, So I Guess Thats Good
Also When I Hear The Constant Knocking On My Door, It Annoys Me Enough To Get Me Close To "Blowing Up"
I Didn't "Blow Up" Yet, But The Looming Threat Of Me "Blowing Up" Lingers In My Mind
Im Afraid That I May Say Something That I Don't Mean And That I'll Do Something Stupid
Im Just A Disaster Waiting To Happen
If Only She Stayed
If Only There Was Another Way
If Only I Was Emotionless
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