In the Heat of the Moment

Chapter Ten

Jen's P.O.V.
I don't know what to do. I thought I liked Josh, and I'm pretty sure I still do-well, kind of-but I think I like Nick now, too. I don't know why, or since when, but recently I've been getting nervous and tongue-tied around him. My feelings for him have come out of nowhere. I just don't feel good about this. Nick and I are really close and I don't want to ruin our friendship. But, that's not the main thing that's bugging me. My feelings for Josh is what's bothering me. I definitely enjoyed that kiss from him the other day, but I don't want to lead him on or anything if I actually like Nick. All of this is just so unnecessarily complicated.
Nick's nice, cute, and charming, but he lacks the ability to be in charge. I don't know why, but I like guys who are smart and know what they want. Josh is exactly like that. He's also sweet, funny, and caring. But what does it come down to? Who I like better? Who's more attractive? Who's been there for me through thick and thin? It's a tie for all three! And, honestly, do I even need to choose? Can't I like both of them and stay single for the time being? Josh could be waiting for me to make the first move. I should probably just tell him how I'm feeling-right? I guess I'll just have to let things work out on their own.
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Days later, things aren't even close to working out on their own. Every time I see either Josh or Nick, my stomach gets butterflies. I've hung out with both of them a lot these past few days, but I haven't really decided who I like better. I'm not worrying about it because I really don't need to make a choice. Whatever. It is what it is-I guess.
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As I sit in my room one night thinking about Josh and Nick, my phone buzzes. It's Connor. Why would Connor be calling me?
"Hey," he says breathless into the phone.
"Hey. . . ?" I respond, still confused as to why Connor's calling me.
"Have you seen Josh today? Like, are you with him? He hasn't been home since this morning and he's not answering my or my parents' phone calls. We're starting to get worried, and we figured we'd ask some of his friends if they knew where he is. Do you have any idea?"
Panic consumes me. Josh is gone? I can only imagine what's happened to him. Has he been kidnapped? Is he injured? Or worse? I force myself not to think like that before responding to Connor.
"Uh, no, Connor, I haven't seen him. Sorry. I can call him if you want." I suggest.
"Um, no, it's fine. My mom's on the phone with someone right now, I think it might be Josh." He replies.
"Oh, okay." I say. "Let me know if there's any other problems."
"Okay. Bye." Connor hangs up the phone. I hope it was Josh that his mom was talking to. . .
Since it's a Friday and I don't have a swim meet tomorrow (for once), I tune into Netflix on my laptop and begin watching a TV show I've been meaning to catch up on. I can't stop thinking, though, about what I'd do if something had happened to Josh. I wouldn't ever be able to get over losing him. Nick, maybe, but not Josh. Never could I get over Josh.
About an hour into my binge-watching on Netflix, I get a phone call. It's Connor. Before I even answer the call I start to worry. Is this about Josh?
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