Blood Traitor- Draco Malfoy x Hufflepuff reader

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We kissed! Draco Malfoy kissed me! Wow! Never in a million years would I imagine that happening. But now I have to forget it. Now I have to pretend it never happened. It's funny how life works out. When I was little I used to dread the day we would first kiss, as back then it was inevitable. But now I've kissed him by choice and wish I could do it again. Alas, I can't. Suddenly, a flashback enters my mind:

My fifth birthday, all of my parents' associates are coming over for the occasion, I've been forced into an uncomfortable green dress and I'm sulking to mother.

"Do I have to see Draco!"

I whine hopelessly.

"Yes."

she abruptly snaps

"the two of you are going to have to learn to tolerate each other!"

"But why?"

I protest.

"You know that when you turn eighteen you are going to be wed!"

Even back then her response didn't shock me, we'd had this argument many times before, it definitely wasn't the first time I'd be told about my so-called 'destiny' and it certainly wouldn't be the last. The flashback continues, I'm not sure why it's so clear now but it feels like I'm looking in a Pensieve. The 'party' begins. Hearing a knock at the door, I sigh. The Malfoys have arrived. Young Draco immediately goes to find me. Even at such a young age, we despised each other.

"(L/N)."

He sneered

"Malfoy."

I spat back Even though I clearly didn't want him there, it was pointless complaining, so I simply walked away from him hoping he didn't follow me. Unfortunately, I was not so lucky.

"I bet you're not really pure blood. I bet you're a filthy squib!"

he taunted. Before I knew it all the children were chanting:

"(Y/N) is a squib! (Y/N) is a squib!"

Suddenly, my blood felt like it was burning, I could practically feel it bubbling up inside me. A burst of magic seemed to shoot through me and hit Draco. It was as if he had been pushed over, he landed on his bum. He cried Narcissa went to comfort him. Most of the crowd at the event cheered. The (L/N)'s daughter wasn't a squib like everyone expected! It was the first-ever incident involving accidental magic but it certainly wasn't the last. Even though I wasn't a particularly late developer, my family were beginning to grow concerned as they thought that I didn't show the same potential as Draco for some reason and leading up to that day, they had no problem with expressing those concerns, very loudly, in front of me and Draco. Don't get me wrong, I have no issue with squibs now but at the time I was indoctrinated to believe that if I wasn't a pure-blood witch then I'm would be worthless. Funnily enough, it's not the last time Draco was subject to one of my outbursts of accidental magic. In fact, the vast majority of my outbursts were aimed at him. This often led to an outburst in retaliation. Looking back, I feel bad for the house-elves that had to clean up the mess. How can hate turn to love so unexpectedly? No matter, I have to think about something else. I have to pretend that I never kissed him which means that I need to stop thinking about him. Desperately I try to turn my attention to the potions essay I need to write but if I think about potions I'll think about him. Hogsmeade? No use! The Triwizard Tournament? Okay...that works! I really hope that Cedric is picked to complete. I know he'll be brilliant if he is! It'll be exciting no matter what though. The goblet's rather grand watching people put their names in is a thrill in itself. Especially when it was Cedric putting his name in. That was just before found me. And...we're back, that lasted a good 15 minutes. Maybe if I try to make conversation with my friends it'll help. After chatting with my friends for a while and desperately trying to stop over analysing that damn kiss, it's curfew. Climbing into bed, I am still desperately trying to push the kiss out of my mind. In all honesty, though, I don't want to forget about it. If everything was simple, I'd treasure that memory, however, it isn't, which means that the memory will always be a painful one. Which is why I need to get rid of it.

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Breakfast the next morning would seem normal to someone who didn't know the events of the night before, on the other hand, if someone did, they would know how intense it really was. Whenever I glanced over to the Slytherin table Draco was watching me. His stare was so captivating that I definitely made eye contact with him a few times; Every time I did the tension seemed to increase. Secretly, I am desperate to talk to him but I know I can't, I mustn't. Both of us know what will happen if any of Voldemort's followers caught us conversing again, we learned the hard way. So we both just keep looking longingly across the room, fantasising about the life that we want more than anything but know we cannot have. Once the world's most agonising breakfast is over, it's time to head to class.

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Lessons today were rather unremarkable. As soon as they'd finished, Hannah, Susan and I decided that we should just flake out on the sofas in the common room and recover from a long day. Unsurprisingly, when we arrive Cedric is already there. For a while, we chat as friends do, however, something seems off about Cedric. Eventually, he confirms my suspicions by asking if we can have a word in private. Of course, I agree and the two of us find a quiet corner.

"(Y/N)?...I've been wanting to ask you this for a while and it seems like now is the right time...you're one of the kindest, smartest and most loyal people I have ever met...not to mention the most beautiful...so...would you like to go out with me?"

Cedric's words hit me like a ton of bricks, I don't know what to say. Obviously, I love Draco, there's no getting away from that, however, it'll never work with him and Cedric is so sweet and he genuinely cares for me and that's not even mentioning the fact that he's one of the most intelligent, athletic and handsome boys in the school. Suddenly, I find myself nodding, deep down I know it's what I need to do. I need to move on from Draco.

"Yes Cedric, of course, I'll go out with you!"