I pace the room back and forth, my mind is going crazy and it's hard to keep my thoughts at bay. I know Rebekah knows something, but the question is: what?
My "condition" has caused me to go in and out of reality. Although this is nothing new I've been craving human blood worse than ever and Damon has been acting different lately. He's been... quiet. Damon is never quiet, except for when he is really struggling with the blood lust. I know it's wrong for me to expect him to not partake in what we were made to nourish our souless bodies with, even moreso now that all I want is what he wants.
Stefan walks into the room and my thoughts and pacing are cut short.
"She knows something" he says intently.
I nod.
"Do you think you can get her to talk?" I inquire.
He looks at me pondering this question.
"I can try but I think we should give her some time, did you see her face when his name left Bonnie's mouth? She looked like she had just seen a ghost. She must know some detailed things about Vlad, or why would she get all weird about it?"
"Exactly" I whisper. "Hey, do you know where Damon is?"
He shakes his head, just as I feared. Not knowing where Damon is usually means one thing: Something bad is happening or is going to happen.
"Well.......". my words trail off for a moment; "I'm going to go look for him."
Stefan leaves the room and I walk over to the mirror checking to make sure I look okay, I put on a light layer of lipgloss and run my fingers through my loose waves. I put on my backpack and head out the door.
As I walk through the woods I am left with only my thoughts, I have so many questions for Rebekah but I know pushing her is never a good way to go about things. She is very testy, so I decide to leave well enough alone for the time being. All I want to do now is to spend a day with Damon. We haven't had much quality time together in what feels like forever. I keep losing myself and I feel miles away. I know that isn't easy for Damon, and it's even harder for me at times. I forgot what "normal" is, and I miss normal.
As I am walking I stop in my tracks. I sense human blood and am immediately drawn to it. The veins around my eyes start to show and I can feel my vamp teeth pertruding. The urge is unstoppable this time and I find myself walking in the direction of the blood without control. I'm like a magnet looking for it's mate. I push through some branches hanging down from a massive weeping willow. As I push through I see a woman sitting in a white lace dress that flows out around her. She looks so beautiful sitting there. She's reading a book and looks so relaxed, it's such a beautiful day. I almost wish I were her right now. My teeth are in full view, I bring my toungue up to feel the edges of their sharpness. I notice from my peripheral that the man I was searching for is to my right. I turn to meet his gaze as I can feel him staring at me. His vamp side is completely out as well. I walk over to him quietly to not disturb the woman. I tippy toe up to his level and kiss him ever so sweetly. I break away staring into his vampy eyes and he grins at me. I smile back feeling as happy and as content as ever.
I turn around slowly to look at the woman who is involved in her book so deeply its as if she isn't aware of the world around her. I grab Damon's hand and start slowly towards her. I kneel down in front of her and she looks up with tears in her eyes and locks onto my gaze. She doesn't look afraid she just holds her gaze to mine. Damon joins me and kneels beside me, but she doesn't break away from her trance from me.
She whispers ever so quietly, "I'm going to die today, I'm going to die today, I'm going to die today....."
I nod, and show my sharp white teeth.
I respond, "You are going to die today......"
I look over at Damon who is looking at me as if he has never seen me before, but he looks so happy he's smiling at me while holding my hand. He reaches her other hand out and puts it behind her neck, I bring her wrist up to my mouth and sweep my lips across it softly. Damon leans forward and puts his teeth to her neck very slowly but doesn't bite. He looks down at me, as if he's waiting until I am ready.
I nod slightly and sink my teeth in. He does the same. Her gaze finally breaks free as her head shoots up pointing to the sky. She doesn't cry, she doesn't scream. It's as if she is enjoying the feeling of us killing her, of us draining her of her blood, of us taking her last breath from her. I lean up and sink my teeth into her neck and then lean over to damon and meet his lips with mine. He smiles as he kisses me softly.
I break away "This is what we needed." I say quietly.
He nods "Elena, this IS what we needed. I didn't know this is what you wanted."
"Are you kidding me?" I smirk. "It's all I ever think about. I know it's wrong, I know it's now how I am. But I've changed. I lose myself more and more that every second passes by. I am starting to lose the old Elena, and am starting to love the new Elena. I want you want, I want to make you happy. No matter what involves. Things have changed, and i've accepted it. All I want right now is to spend time with you, and indulge in this blood I've been longing for so long."
He looks at me in a very serious way and says................ "Whose our next victim?"
We leave the woman with the book in her lifeless arms and lean her against the tree trunk. I place a flower on her chest.
I smile, and stand up........
I hold my hand out and he takes it............. Damon pulls me in and wraps his arm around my waist as we begin to walk to find our next wants and desires......
