Love On Track ! Taerose

twenty four ! hard to do

DAY OF COMPETITION
final round before the actual finals

"gather up everyone, today we come to win, without this win we're not even going to qualify for finals" namjoon cheered the team up

↳ TAEHYUNG POV ♡

i gulped down a bottle of water and starting my drills and warms up, to be honest i haven't been concentrating lately, it was rather hard to focus, probably because of what jaehyun said to me that day, who knew that man would have such a way with words

I saw chaeyoung talking with our rival team, she is a socialist anyways, so it's really no wonder, but sometimes don't you think she's going overboard? Like we're going up against them, why is she wasting her time and energy talking to them too?

Whatever, it's her life, i shouldn't be complaining

I took my spike shoes and put them on, as the men 100 solo was just right around the corner, the organizer has already started to call the names of runners

"mom! can i have that candy? " i heard a child voice, turning around i saw a girl with cute pigtails walking with her mom, it was so, painful to see

If only I've gotten the chance to do things like that, to have a mom

Unconsciously a tear rolled down my eyes ( honestly man, just cry wtf) what is this tear, happiness? sadness?

I didn't want to do anything to do with her anyways..

I want to focus but i can't, with the mom thing, with chaeyoung, with jaehyun,
and with the fact that i know chaeyoung was going to leave

"chaeyoung is going back to Australia this month, the earliest would be right now, and the most if delayed is the end of the month, she wasn't here to stay, " a conversation i had with jaehyun replayed in mind

I was right, she was going to leave, but the things im doing, the walking away, no, running away, is that really for everyone's sake? or am i just selfish

I can't seem to find the answer, everything was happening too fast i feel suffocated, what would she feel?

"tae? are you listening? you need to go to the track" jin's voice called

I was distracted for a while, and i need to focus and focus, but, how

I walked with jungkook to the starting line, losing this round means not going to finals as solo and im just going to run in relay, winning this means a direct train to finals on both events, hopefully just hopefully I'll get this done

The coach called all the runners to the starting line, as he began the countdown, ny heart started pumping fast, never once had i felt this nervous

" three, two
ONE! " the sound of a gunshot went around the stadium

I started my sprint, Jungkook following right behind my tail, he must've practiced hard to get this fast, in the past he was never really this determine and skilled, humph

It was our half pass point, we ran 50 meters already, now it's all really up to speed, no turning back to other lanes and eyes on the finish line

I got near the finish line, it was almost impossible for anyone to pass now..
But i lost my focus, i saw a glimpse of chaeyoung anxiously on her phone, and just like that i lost my place

Passing the finish line third, after Jungkook and another guy, i felt devastated

All this and for what, I've practiced my ass off, i even boasted to father that I'd win, but i didn't
now i can't even face the others.