Love On Track ! Taerose

twenty six ! stay or leave

In the end he didn't come, taehyung didn't come at all. I was visited by the others and i guess that's enough, but if he could only make an effort to at least apologize i would've had second thoughts,

before i decided to go back to Australia on my birthday..

February 11th, just a single week left, if i arrive safely there, i could have the chance to celebrate my birthday along with jaehyun's as his was just a few days after

"so you actually decided to go back? " jaehyun placed his bag on the chair and stood beside my bed, hospital bed of course, doctors advised me to stay for a day and told me that i can get discharged the day after

"yeah, why? " i asked, i thought he would be delighted as he was the one telling me and reminding me to go back, so why is he looking so hesitant now

"no nothing, I'll go back with you then, I'll wrap up my works and when you decide on a date tell me so i can book the tickets" he continued

"no i already decided on a date jae, " i brought up, and then continued to tell him how i planned to go back to my homeland on my birthday

He look flabbergasted by my statement just now, what? Is it wrong? Unless my damn of a mother personally come here to pick me up, i won't bother to rethink again

He agreed with the date and went ahead to left for his work

I picked up my phone that was currently charging and saw not one new messages from taehyung but multiple from others, why am i even expecting for him to even say a word, he made up his mind already, to not be a part of my life anymore..

I took a deep breath and thought to myself,

If he chose that, then there's no reason for me to stay anymore, go back to Australia and continue your life..

Well that's what i thought i would hold on to until D-Day of course

TWO DAYS LATER
at chaeyoung's house

I started to pack up my things, five more days until i go back, jaehyun helped me settle up with my apartments, school etc. while i managed my clothes, money and all

"are you going to tell them about you going back? " he asked, currently typing things on his computer while scrolling through his phone as reference

"no, m-maybe.. when the time comes" i hesitated

I wanted to tell them, but i couldn't bring myself to do so, especially when i know there's a possibility they'll try to hold me back, i can't handle all that, the most i could do is telling one of them, probably namjoom or yoongi and tell them to tell the rest

and about the finals, it's going to be on my birthday, not that the others know it's my birthday though

I tried asking namjoon if i could pull back from participating in the finals, of course he begged me not to at first but i made up multiple excuses, including the fact that im still feeling uncomfortable after what happened the last round, in the end he agreed and i felt a bit guilty

and plus, due to certain circumstances, the organizers and sponsors suddenly announced that for the final round there are no requirements for an opposite gender to join, so that means, they can still win without a girl for finals

It was kind of surprising how they suddenly decided on this, on the day i pulled back my participation too, but it's for the best, for everyone's sake, especially mine, because there comes a time i need to think about myself above anything else and this decision seem to be the best