Love On Track ! Taerose

twenty five ! fall

↳ CHAEYOUNG POV ♡

the moment i had the baton in my possession and saw the face of the man i brutally want to kill at that moment, i just knew something was going to go wrong

But i kept running anyway, i can't let my emotions interfere with the race

But when i was getting so near to him,  i started losing control of my breathing, i don't know why and neither do i know how to fix it like i usually do, because at that point, all i knew and was thinking about, was that shit is about to go down

I reached taehyung position and the moment i passed the baton and saw his face, clearly right in front of me, the whole world stop, everything was moving in slow motion and i took a good look at his face

'leave' was all i can read from his expression

Moments later, a reality meteor hit me and it's getting normal again, my vision, my thinking.. But there was one thing not normal,

When i realized the actual reality, my face was falling towards the floor, and at that moment i knew, i fucked up

Falling down on my face, sprinting my ankle, knees bruised, everything was happening, i was laying under the sun, i could hear a commotion happening and i could hear the sounds of footsteps hurrying towards my direction

A figure of a man lifted me up and put me on top of a stretcher, i could hear the sound of very familiar voices nearing, but all i could think about at that point was

Did he finish the race already?

I hated the fact that i was still thinking about him but it was to be expected, there wasn't anyone else besides him, but he's choosing to abandon me, to run away, to throw me out

As if im just something he could take and leave

A pair of warm hands was placed on top of my right hand, i could hear and recognition who it was, it was Namjoon

He looked rather shocked and scared, it was just a fall, so why is he so afraid, i tried to focus on him and say anything, literally anything that could calm him and the others down

As the gurney i was on was pushed into an ambulance, namjoon and jungkook both followed along, and just before the closed the door, i could see him, i could see Taehyung

His eyes were droopy, he had a concerned expression, but was it for me, or was it for anything else

I decided i didn't want to think about him anymore, it was too much of a burden to think about everything, i have my own problems to solve, being threatened by my own mother, and im still trying to find a way to solve his problem 

Whatever, i don't want to care anymore, I'll just close my eyes, and sleep, and rest, and when i wake up, whether i see him waiting or not, that'll be the way i decide

Whether I'll be going back or not

↳ TAEHYUNG POV ♡

as i saw her being rushed into an ambulance i felt a huge amount of i don't know how tf to describe this burdening feeling around me ( okay, it's me, i don't know the word)

In the moment of anxiousness, we locked eyes, i was worried, so worried, was it my fault? Did i go too far? I focused on trying to concentrate and made other people lose theirs im return, selfishness.

Her eyes weren't shining as it used to, she looked at me with absolute disgust and emptiness, her gaze felt like it could kill me any minute, she was expressing her emotions through that eyes of hers, the eyes that always looked at me no matter what, the eyes that used to look up to me, and now it's gone, and it's my fault, i made her lose her sparkle, my selfishness.

As the ambulance door was closed, i wished and prayed in my heart, to make sure she's safe, to make sure she was okay and nothing serious happened.. and then i felt someone's hand on the back of my shoulder, it would usually be chaeyoung but it's obviously not her anymore