Love Like This

Megan

I left the room, I couldn't keep it in anymore, I was going to explode. Jake had been cheating on me with a girl at college. I didn't want to tell my parents because it's just too embarrassing to talk about stuff like that. I ran to my room and just burst into tears, I wanted to give up on boys completely they were all the same. I was lucky to have a best friend as great as Heather though she always knew how to cheer me up. Minutes after I ran up stairs Heather came in and gave me a hug and told me whatever it was I can tell her when I am ready. It wasn't the first time I'd been heart broken but it was the first time I was really in love.

That night when we went to bed Heather and me got into bed and I don't know why but I snuggled up to her and she let me, it felt weird but not wrong, I mean this was my best friend and it was just because I was sad...right?

I had never looked at a girl in that way...I didn't fancy Heather did I? 

I put the thought to the back of my head, I only thought that because I was experiencing heart break. 

I didn't want Heather to get freaked out so I kept the thought to myself. 

The next day was better for me because I could really focus on myself and my friends rather than a boy who obviously didn't care.

Heather bought me some chocolates to cheer me up which was very sweet of her... I tried not to think too much of it but still a little bit of me thought about her in a way that I shouldn't do...

FUCK!!! Why am I thinking of her in a romantic way, she is my best friend. 

I kept wondering does she think of me too, then thinking no she can't she's got a boyfriend.  Why was this happening, why have I started to see my best friend as something more?

What would she think if she knew, what would she say, would she reject me, would she accept me, I don't know what to do? 

"Hey Meg, you ok?" She asked

"Yeah, I'm cool!" I lied "Just thinking about things, nothing to worry about!" I had to make her think everything was ok when I was lying to myself. 

What was happening?