My Own Version Of Love

Fate is Just a Series of Personal Decisions Made by Various People

Izuku POV

I came home today to celebrate christmas with my family. We walked around town in the morning and relaxed at the beach for an overnight. Everything is going well until my parents decided to bring up marriage. They said that i'm old enough to have a girlfriend or two but what can i do? I'm not attracted to women. They know it too but they still brought it up which means they're pretty drunk by now. Only my mom knows that i love kacchan and i won't change my mind. When evening came, they both passed out so i brought then to their bed and pulled a blanket to cover them.

It's still a little bit early so i went out to go to my secret place. Actually, i made a secret place for myself when i was a kid. That time, kacchan left for the city and i was depressed. I gathered rocks in the beach and arranged them as a thick wall. I also made sure that it would look natural so as not to risk being exposed. It's also a great place for viewing the ocean and the fireworks.

Tonight, i decided to visit that place. I want to be alone to think about the future.

"My parents bug me every single time i visit them about girlfriends and marriage. Maybe it's about time i consider their suggestion. I said i won't change my mind but i haven't seen kacchan for years. I don't know if he's still alive or if he already has someone he loves."

With those thoughts in my mind, i arrived at the entrance to the secret place. I entered with expectations to be alone but i was dumbfounded when i saw kacchan sitting there looking at the fireworks. I thought i was dreaming at first and i unconsciously called out to him.

"Kacchan?"

I was shocked when he moved and looked at me and said my name almost like a whisper.

"De...ku?"

His voice is so beautiful as always. I felt my face heat up. Fortunately, it's dark so he didn't noticed.

We talked for a bit. It was awkward the whole time and there was a lot of silence. As i was processing the reality within ny head, kacchan walked away. I unconsciously grab his wrist and stopped him from leaving.

"Can you stay here a little bit longer?"

What am i saying? Ahh!! I don't know anymore!

He pulled his wrist away from me and began to walk again without looking back. I collapsed on the sand when he was out of my sight, with my face flushes red and steam flows out of my head.

I touched him! This is not a dream! I missed him so much! Waahh~!

I spent a whole hour thinking about kacchan and our conversation earlier. He said he lives here. That means i will be able to see him if i stay here! Ah! That's right! I did not ask him where he lives! I'm such an idiot! Stupid me! Wait. Maybe the locals would know. I'll ask them tomorrow.

The next day, i woke up early super excited. I ran outside and ask the people if they knew kacchan and where he is living now. Surprisingly, a lot of people know him and they gave me directions to his house.

I walked to his place with fruits and spicy seafood. I also packed a gift for him in a hurry. As i get nearer, i already noticed him by the entrance way. He is watering the plants and based on his clothes, it seems like he was planting new seeds earlier. I ran towards him and waved.

"Kacchan. Good morning."

He looked shocked to see me but his shockes face is super cute!

"Morning. Why are you here?"

"Uh.. erm.. Here! I brought you a gift! Since i was not able to give it to you yesterday, i thought i'd bring it..."

My words slowly get quieter at the end as i looked at kacchan. He's staring at me! Oh my gosh!

We stared at each other for a few seconds. Kacchan tilted his head because he did not hear the latter parts of what i said but ignored it when i didn't answer.

"Well, for now come in."

"Yes. Excuse me for barging in."

"Stay here. I'll change first."

After a few minutes, kacchan came back wearing a black shirt and brown shorts.

"So what did you came here for?"

"I brought you a christmas gift."

"Thank you. Sorry but i don't have a gift for you."

"It's ok. It was sudden so i understand and i'm not expecting you to give me a gift in return. I just want to give you mine so please accept it."

He opened my gift and thanked me. It was a white scarf. I thought that he was not wearing one last night when it was very cold.

"So, is that all you came here for?"

"Huh? Uhm.. Can i ask you something?"

"Go ahead."

"Do you... have a girlfriend?"

"There is no one. I'm not interested in love anymore. It's disgusting."

His face is emotionless but i can feel the pain with his every word. What happened to him the last few years?

"If that's all you wanted to say, leave now."

"Kacchan."

I hugged him and i feel that he was shocked but i can't help it. It looks like he was suffering. This is the least i could do. Although i expected him to push me away the second i touch him, he stayed still.

"Let me go deku."

He pushed me away as he said those words so i let him go.

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Nice!

They are so perfect with each other!

It is my biggest challenge to write fluffy sweet scenes so i'll try my best in the next chapters. Right now, i feel the same as katsuki. I don't believe in love because my ex taught me that men only want me for my body. Love is simply a sexual desire, nothing more.

I don't know what romance is as depicted by my stories. My only source of romance is the romance novels that i read everyday.

I'm happy to be single and kacchan is too.

See you in the next chapter. Thanks so much for reading.