Beautiful Darkness: A Psychopath

Chapter 10

Tris

It's been a couple of days now since my father moved into my house. Right now, all we are waiting for is for my mother to recover from her current situation.

Kakagaling ko lang ngayon sa furniture store para sa mga in-order ko na gamit sa bahay na siyang magagamit nila Mama at Papa kapag magkakasama na kami nang maabutan ko si Dream na nakasa sandal lang sa sasakyan niya na nakaparada sa harap ng bahay ko at hindi pumapasok.

Bahagyang nakakunot ang noo ko na lumapit sa kaniya. Ilang segundo lang ay napansin na niya ako kaya tumayo na siya ng matuwid.

"Anong ginagawa mo dito sa labas?" I asked him.

"I'm waiting for you... where did you go?" he asked but it was different... the usual look on his face and lips were missing. He looked like he was hiding sadness in him.

"Furniture store,"

"You should have told me... hinatid nalang sana kita,"

I sighed and I was not hiding the observing look on my face. I was low-key telling him that I am noticing that he is not okay.

"Can we talk?" he then talked after seconds of silence after he figured out that I'm observing him.

"Of course, about what?" I quickly agreed. He was nodding as he guided me inside his car. Wala naman ngayon si Papa kaya hindi ko na kailangan na pumasok muna sa bahay at ipaalam na dumating na ako.

Tahimik lang ang buong biyahe namin hanggang sa makarating kami sa café na siyang pinag usapan din namin ni Papa nung nakaraan. Nakakunot ang noo ko na sinundan siya papasok sa loob kung saan nakapag pa-reserve na siya ng lamesa para sa aming dalawa at nakahanda na rin ang pagkain.

Hindi pa man kami nagsisismula na mag-usap ay nararamdaman ko na ang lungkot na nakapaligid sa aming dalawa. Lalo na ang lungkot sa mukha niya na ngayon ay hindi na niya itinatago sa akin.

"I'm leaving for America," at first it didn't really sink in and I just went blank for a second then eventually it did. He is leaving... I was shocked but I stayed silent so I can give him time to give his reason.

"You're important, Tris, because I love you... but I completely understand what you are feeling. As much as I want to stay here and be with you, I just don't have anything to hold on to here anymore. You have to spend more time with your family from now on and I don't want you to feel any pressure that you have to make time to meet me..." he explained, word by word.

I took a deep breath.

It is sad... him leaving, it makes me want to cry but I know I can't force him to stay here if he really doesn't want to be here anymore so all I can do for him until this end is to understand all of his reasons.

I stood up, smiling in pain and approached him to ask for a hug. While smiling he accepted it and tightly hugged me back.

Matapos naming kumain pareho... nag-usap na parang hindi alam na sa oras na matapos 'yun ay 'yun narin ang huli naming pag-kikita.

Sabay na kaming lumabas at bago siya pumasok sa sasakyan niya ya huminto muna siya saglit at humarap muli sa akin.

"I hope at some point I was a help to you..." he said with his usual smile finally back on his face. He is just worried that he will hurt me with his decision that's why he was looking sad earlier and now that he knows that I understand him... he looked happy. That's a relief.

"You are... all the time." I answered, coming straight from my heart.

"Meeting you was one of the biggest achievements that I obtained all my life... you made me think that I'm deserving of being loved and I'm very thankful," I said and he gave me an adoring smile for it.