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29/05/1995

**Content Warning: sexual abuse and violence.**

Kaylah Carter

4:21 am

"I promise to be better!" I begged, pulling against the chains that bound my wrists to the wall, stopping immediately when I heard the familiar rattle of keys in the door.

"Shut the fuck up you little runt. You're 5 years old, and a girl at that, you're supposed to be seen and not heard." The man shouted at me from behind the door, banging on the wall, but didn't enter the room. Good. Stay back. I don't like you.

Once he was satisfied I was going to be quiet, I heard him leave nearly as quickly as he had appeared, the sound of his heavy boots against the floor fading as he walked away.

I threw my head back against the wall, hitting it hard. I'm not sure if I was trying to hurt myself, or if I just want the pain as a distraction. Either way I keep hitting my head, over and over again, until the dizziness becomes too much, and everything goes black.

"Get up." The sharp words making me jump as I struggled to remember where I was. "I have a surprise for you." No thankyou. I don't like surprises.

I watched the man wearily as he opened the cuffs from around my wrists and walked towards the door. For a moment I thought he was helping, that I was safe. Click. The man locked the door, and my heart dropped to my feet. "Get up I said."

Reluctantly and on shaky legs, I stand up annd walk towards him. Once I'm close enough he grabs my wrist and yanks me infront of him. "Undress."

"I-I don't want to, Sir." I mumbled, looking down.

The man raised his hand and placed a harsh slap across my cheek, causing me to gasp, but I knew better than to raise my hand to hold my face. "I said undress." The man repeated, his fast depleting patience evident in his voice.

I close my eyes and swallow back the tears forming in my throat before I start slowly peeling off my clothes.

Once I was finished, the man barked another order. "Lay down." But this time instead of waiting for me to do it myself, he throws me onto the bed. I try to crawl back but the man just grabs my legs and pulls me towards him again. "Where do you think you're going, bitch."

I hold my breath as I feel his calloused hands travel up my legs, stopping at the top of my thighs. Someone help. Make it stop. Please.

"Don't worry babygirl, you'll love this." The man says as he unbuckles his belt and climbs on top of me.

I try to writhe away from him but he grabs my wrists in one hand, and my hip in the other, before leaning down to my ear, his stale breath fanning against my face making me scrunch up my nose.

"Struggling only makes me harder baby." I immediately stopped moving and my body tensed as his hand moved inbetween my thighs and he slid two fingers roughly inside of me.

Closing my eyes I fought back any evidence of the overwhelming pain I was in, but when he added another finger I couldn't hold it in any more, my small screams filling the room. I tried to shout, tell him to stop, but the man pulled his fingers out of me and shoved them into my mouth, making me gag.

"Did you like that slut?" He asked with a smirk, pulling me off the bed by my hair and throwing me onto the ground on my knees.

"Open." he ordered, and as I did he pushed himself into my mouth, forcing me to take him all at once. The tears flowed freely now, and I tried to scream but every time I did, the man just moaned and gripped my head tighter, leaving me gagging and gasping for air. His deep moans and grunts became breathier as his warm release shot into my mouth. "Swallow." He rasped. And I did - I didn't want to get hurt again.

"Good girl." The man said, patting my head a he got up, climbed into his jeans and strolled to the door. I almost relaxed as he opened the door and looked to be leaving, but I tensed once again as he shouted out, "Hey boys come here, I've found a good one."

Four new men appeared at the door, grinning and exchanging glances when they saw me.

The first man looked back at me, then turned to the men he'd just called. " Use her. She's yours for the night." He said to them, turning to walk through the door. "Just try not to break her too much." He smirked.

And with that the door closed.

Fresh tears brimmed in my eyes as the men began to stalk towards me. Fear overcame me, but I couldn't move, I just laid there silently begging someone to save me.

But deep down, I knew no one would ever come.