In my life

My family PART TWO

Aren't mothers supposed to be nurturing and loving and encouraging. Aren't they? Don't they want what is best for their child? Am I right? Mother's want the very best for their offspring. Well if you have that mother congregations for you. And by the way can we trade? Please. My question for my siblings is are we terrible kids? Are we or is it our mother? I hate looking at picture with captions underneath saying "Me and my amazing mom" or "my best friend my mom". Gosh darn it! That makes me mad but mostly sad really. A lot of people have wonderful relationships with their mother. I'm actually really jealous of those people. I don't ever think I can get to that point with my mother.

My mother is not sensitive when it comes to other people or even us but when an issue is about her man those fake tears will not stop running. I don't hate my mom I just want her to have more compassion. Is that a lot to ask for? She yells more than any other person I know. Seriously I can hear her from the fucking neighbor's house. Shut-up, I would say in my head of course or she'll hurt me. She is someone who is determined to be right even everything she is saying is so wrong and it doesn't even make any sense at all.

Her style matches her personality really well. She has terrible taste in clothes as well as home decor. Seriously this woman needs help a.s.a.p. It's not like we don't try to help her she just believe that everyone else except for her is wrong. I remember one time she wore brown pants and a brown long sleeve shirt and thinking she looked like a poop and I told her that as well. As usual she didn't care and just worried about what she thinks but seriously I should have taken a picture of it. Most of her clothes look like club wear I'm really embarrass most times I go out with her. It's not the right fit and she is definitely not the right age for club wear. I would ask her every now and then "why are you wearing club wear" and her answer would be "this is not club wear". I mean seriously how could you not know what club wear looks like. Ahh! She really makes even a somewhat normal person angry.

The terrible fashion and completely bizarre taste she has isn't the worst of it. Her being a shopaholic is probably the most problematic issues she has. She will not refuse a sale. Seriously would buy things we don't need or even have use for just because of a fucking sale. One time she bought some food item in a large quantity that was about to expire in a couple of days. I asked her why she bought them her reply "it was on sale" and my reply "when are we going to finish these before they expire" and no answer from her. Err! She makes me rethink life in ways I haven't before like "should I go into business to find dumbass shoppers like my mom" or "is the world or grown-ups just another world of stupid people". I don't even know what has caused her to have this problem. She has six daughters and usually with that large amount of number to take care of usually comes with being forced to be frugal. I swear after all of us leaves she is probably going to become a hoarder.

I don't hate her but unfortunately I sound like I do. I could never hate anyone especially my own mother it's just inhumane. I just wish she would be sympathetic or try to understand where we're coming from. I don't believe my mother ever cared about our education at all, I do not understand this up till this moment and I don't believe I'll ever get a straight answer from her about it. She wasn't the type of mother that would ask, "What do you want to be when you're older?" or "are you thinking of your future yet?" I also never got my homework checked by her at all or heard her say, "go, do your homework". Since I never got any of these little push that was supposed to help you become serious about your education I spent most of my days watching TV and believe or not I got more serious about wanting to do something about my life from TV. The television had programs for little kids that teaches them about wanting to be someone with a career in the future, so as I was watching these I kept in mind what I wanted to be. So in other words television was my encouragement to for wanting to have a career in the future not my mother or my father.

She was a really good cook when I was a kid but now that I'm a teenager she is not very good at all anymore. I actually used to enjoy her cooking very much; I'd look forward to meals from her. Nowadays I cook what I can or if she cooks I'd drown it in pepper sauce or ketchup. One time she attempted to make chicken curry and fish curry into one pot. It's like she doesn't care any more she just throws whatever into the pot and calls it "food". This is the one thing I hate about her taking advice from other peoples that she actually takes it. She makes food have flavors that is unrecognizable she takes their advice and her advice and put them together and it equals to disgusting meals.

Darn it I sound ungrateful! Well I'm not damn it! I really appreciate everything my mother does for her family. She cooks on most days after she comes back from work and I think that is great. My mother cleans like no one else even though she makes most of the mess. She keeps us updated with the latest gossip with she is talking on the phone, she is probably one of the loudest human being on this planet. And most of all she supports us by letting us live in her home.