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"Maya, are you okay?" Lilly asks.
I ignore her. I wonder if they can hear me crying? But, I can't help this pain I feel in my heart. This is all your fault.
"Lilly, what was your reason for this?" Janet asks and my eyes grow wide.
But, I didn't look at them.
"What do you mean? Are you implying that I did this on purpose? I have no control over that man's actions. It's not my fault he felt some type of way."
"Did you? Because I was only asking. I wasn't implying anything. Are you feeling guilty about something?"
I can't take this. This is too much for me to handle. I stand from the table quickly as my hands hit the table loudly. Everyone's eyes were on me. All of their eyes were wide. Confusion and worry on their faces and in their eyes.
"Sweetheart are you okay?" Ms. Katie asks.
"I'm sorry. I just need a moment alone." I say before walking away.
I find my way back over to that tree I was at. How could he do something like that? He promised. I sit on the other side of the tree where no one can see me. My knees to my chest. My arms crossed on my knees and my head in my arms. I just let my tears fall. This hurts. How could he? I just don't get it. Why? Why me? I swear I'm nothing but bad luck. I don't deserve to be happy. I guess I don't deserve him.
"Maya." Lilly says sitting down next to me and I roll my eyes. "I'm sorry." She softly says touching my arm.
But, I can't look at her. I just can't seem to stop crying. I shake her hand off of me.
"This is all your fault." I mumble.
"My fault. I didn't think he was going to react like that. I just thought if you saw them and remember all the fun we use to have. You would want to be friends with me again."
I look at her as my tears fall aggressively.
"That's the thing you don't think." I say in a huff. "Fuck you, Lilly." I say pointing my finger at her. "I fucking love that man and you wanna play high school games. I want nothing to do with you. I tried to remain cordial for everyone else's sake. But, I hate you."
Her eyes grow wide.
"You don't mean that." She says lowly.
"You need to get away from her now." Janet says yanking her up from the ground. "I do believe you caused enough problems."
"Janet." She says pushing her hand away. "Like I said. This isn't my fault for his reaction. I just thought if she saw the good times we use to have. She would want to be friends with me again."
"You're done. I won't tell Randy. Because I don't wanna cause problems right now. But, if you pull something like this again. I'm just gonna punch you in the face than explain it to him after."
