11:11

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Dear Jimin,

I'll be straight to the point, I'm nervous.

I not only have a group performance, but a solo performance and a duet with you. I'm sure you know though. I'm both nervous and excited. Nervouscited? Let me search for the word for nervous and excited for a little. Excuse moi for a second.

Okay so there's a word called frisson. It means both scared and excited. Close enough? I have two songs I'm performing. First is 11:11 and then Fine. The format is we sing one song that's ours and one cover. I mean we don't have to, but I want to. Fine is my favorite song now.

The thing is, the song has some wicked high notes. If you haven't seen it, go search Fine by Taeyeon. I recommend the concert version, I love the live versions of songs.

Anyways, as I was saying, I am frisson due to the fact that the high notes are high, but I'm so excited to be on stage. It's one of the things I've always wanted to do. I remember I would even cry when I see concerts because I wanted to be up there, singing my heart out and basically just doing what I love.

Tomorrow is the big day. The day I've been preparing for, for weeks. I even refused to talk this entire night, so I could rest my voice.

Yes, my talkative self actually is following through with that, and let me tell you, it's hell. But at least I can text. I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight though? I mean I have to. I need all the energy I can get for tomorrow. I'm trying really hard to be positive and hope for the best despite everything.

One thing is for sure, you helped me and continue to help me through all of this, and for that I am grateful.

I love you Jimin-ah, always know that.