Ergo, (What do you think?)

How do I see myself in 10 years

I was calling my closest girlfriend and in order to distract her from thinking about her relationship, I divert her attention to a bigger picture; about life. We chatted about our plans for the future and so on. I was just talking gibberish at that time because like people say, dreaming is free. 

Suddenly, I think. My 'dreams' were so specific. They are not merely a dream but a plan. I should sleep by this time. It is 4.09 a.m. but these ideas cannot die! I feel the urge to document it.

We start the interval within 5 years first. I will finish my study in TESL in 2026, at the age of 25. Kinda feel the social pressure there since most of my friends have already settled down with marriage or carrier. But that is okay. My life is not a race. I am a believer in it.

Regarding emotional-wise, I will improve my anger management. I am able to calm down before I decide to lash out my anger because there is nothing good coming out of anger. Next, I want to acquire profound social skills and a problem-solving mindset. This is so significant because I do not want to rely on people anymore to sort out my own problems. I want to make a decision on my own after thinking about all consequences from every edge. Moreover, I want to strengthen my relationship with God. I will ensure that in a month, at least I perform Tahajjud once a fortnight.

I will take care good care of my parents since I am the only man in this family after the two oldest sisters and also be the coolest and richest single uncle to my nieces and nephews. HAHAHA. 

Oh, Ya! Of course, I aim to graduate with first-class honor. I will study passionately to maintain my cgpa. I also promise myself that there is no time to play because there is a life ahead. Although I plan to score good grades, it will not stop me from being active in curriculum activities that will be conducted in IPG. It is my dream to represent myself in competitions that are related to language and art like debate, forum, and poetry recitation. If I get the opportunity to pursue my education in master's and Ph.D., I will grab it, Insha Allah. But as for now, I don't certainly think about it yet.

In terms of finances, my target by 2026 I have RM***** for my saving if I consistently save my money in ASNB from my teaching income and IPG allowances. I can't precisely tell the exact number because I personally think wealth, family, and age are better to be kept as a secret. I just want to address here that I have a financial plan for my emergency saving because I want my future self to live comfortably and stress less about money.

Regarding the expected timeline, I will start working at the age of 26 as mentioned above. Around the fourth month of working, I plan to open tuition classes. The reason here is to save money for two major things. First, by the end of the year, I will own a car. The car doesn't have to be a fancy car like Honda. I don't care if I can't entice girls by showing off my car. I mean, the initial purpose of buying a car is to move around without having to lean on others. I am okay if I am not labelled as 'Honda Guy' because sustainability is more important to me. Who is going to pay monthly payments for the instalment? ME.

For the two to three years after, I focus on having my own property i.e. a house. I want to live in comfort and as minimalist as I imagine in my own house. My house, my rules. I have so many creative things in my mind but I am hindered from doing so because I am still living under my parents' roof. It is cool to live with our parents but as we get older, we need our own privacy and more me-time. I need my own convenient nest for nesting. I know that this is normal but sometimes I feel upset when I am doing my work, like doing class online at night, sometimes I have to face a little misunderstanding with my dad because he wants his me-time to watch TV but he has to slow down the volume during my classes. Most of the time, I will only keep quiet and hide my feelings. Slowly, the feeling of staying alone is thickening. It does not mean I do not need my parents. I need them. I love them, but sometimes I demand time for myself. Like driving to the beach when I am stress, keeping a bird in my house, and a lot more things. My childish dream is to drive alone in rain or whenever I am grieving as far as my heart brings me. Haha.

Next, during my service time as a teacher, I aim to produce my own revision and techniques books that will help many students ace writing essays. I also will work hard to be 'Guru Cemerlang'. I will forever take my words during my interview as a vow. I want to provide the best education a child could have. I want my student to find me resourceful and reliable enough to share their stories in order for me to help and guide them. I want my students to have a bright future no matter what they do in life. Though I know I am a teacher with many flaws, I hope I can give benefits to my students.

Last but the most meaningful plan, I want to get closer to Allah and fix my relationship with Him. I know that I am not pious and I commit sins, but I always pray that Allah will grant me Hidayah one day. I want to feel Him close to my heart.

We plan not because we know we get it all

but to make sure that we don't lose all.