My bully had to be Boun.

Chapter 14

Prem POV

"Arthur... Are you okay?" I asked Arthur, he seemed upset.

"Yeah I am fine," he said, but he didn't seem like it. 

"You are being oddly silent, what's going on?" 

"It's nothing" 

"Is it because I messed up with the plan? Did you not want me here?" 

He looked at me like I discovered his secret, and then covered up by saying "ahem... No no, nothing like that" 

"I'm sorry Arthur, you know that I just can't stand Boun, I can't even imagine being with him for one whole hour not to mention alone. That's like a nightmare for me" 

"Boun isn't too bad," Arthur said and I hope I didn't offend him by talking shit about his friend. 

"well, I don't mean anything bad, it may be a personal opinion but yeah him and I just don't like each other so that's why" 

" You shouldn't jump to conclusions like that, I understand that Boun has been an asshole to you by abusing his power and all, but he meant well" 

" No no, that's not what I meant, it's just that, he has a bit of an attitude problem like he acts like he doesn't care about the world and he is the only thing that matters, it just annoys me so much" 

" Is it because he doesn't care about the world, or is it because he doesn't care about you" 

Silence, I didn't know what to say, Arthur was right, why do I hate him? Why does it matter if he is a good guy or an asshole? I'm starting to have doubts, do I want his attention? Do I hate him because I don't get enough? I remembered those times when I saw him shirtless in the locker room, his lean body was so mesmerizing that I couldn't stop staring at it. I almost wanted to go touch him and feel his torso, and just like that I was lost in thoughts about Boun's body and I snapped back into reality. This is weird. Why am I thinking about him? If I give a thought to it, I have been thinking about him for such a long time. It felt so nice when he spoke to me with a voice filled with concern when I got pushed on the field, now it almost feels like a dream. I had everyone looking after me when I was in the hospital and when I came back home, but he was the one I missed a lot and wanted to be there for me, even when school started and he didn't show up for more than a week, his absence was killing me, I hate that he didn't take care of me, I hate that he made me miss him so much, I hate that he disappeared for such a long time and when he did come back he ignored me straight away. 

Is it because I am confused between like and hate? Do I like him so much that not getting enough attention from him is making me think that I hate him? This is weird, no, no, no, no, no... None of this is true, it's all in my head, I hate him and that's the only thing I feel about him. 

Arthur noticed my silence and asked, "Buddy, you okay?" 

"Huh .. yeah... I'm fine" 

" Now you've become oddly silent," he said while driving and sipping the orange juice I bought for him. 

I looked at Arthur for a second and said "I'm sorry Arthur, I realized just now that you wanted to go with Ben and I ruined it for you" 

He spat the juice out and choked, if he wasn't driving and if it wasn't life-threatening for both of us, I would have laughed because this was so funny. But I was sensitive enough to not laugh at someone who is coughing to death and I handed him some napkins and some water, which doesn't make sense because he just choked on liquid, but I didn't know what to do. I acted by instinct. He had to pull over to calm down.  

"What?" That's all he could manage to say 

"I... I've noticed the way you look at Ben, and I just thought something was going on between you two"