Me After You

Shouldn't Ask

The ex-lover should not mention about the current one
But why is it hard to keep it mute

I'd like to know about him
The one who has taken my place is still in love with you
I'd like to know about him
The one whom you have chosen to replace me is still taking good care of you
Would like to know if he has ever made you upset or disappointed
And sometimes that you're all alone have you ever missed me

I know our story has been over because you've move in with him
But thinking of you is irresistible
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Chahub was waiting for Beam just as he always does. They've been together for almost three years now. They got together for a very unfortunate reason. His and Beam's family were very close. So, when his parents died due to a plane crash, he was left with Beam's parents. He was the only child and no relatives would want him. He's been living with the Baramee family since he was fifteen years old.

He felt at home with the Baramee's though he misses his parents from time to time. And Beam was the reason his not that lonely anymore. He fell in love when he first met Beam. For him, Beam was everything. The most beautiful, the most intelligent, the cutest, and many more. He courted Beam and was able to have Beam as his boyfriend. Beam's parents didn't protest since both families have long gone decided to have their children get married regardless of the gender.

While waiting for Beam at school, he saw Beam talking to a handsome guy that almost resembles him but for sure he was far more handsome. He saw them laughing and somewhat flirting. He didn't bother since he trust Beam but he feels a little bit jealous.

He called Beam to get his attention. Beam went to him and introduce his companion.

"Chahub, this is Forth my classmate and Forth this is Chahub my friend." It always made him insecure whenever Beam introduce him as a friend. Sometimes it made him wonder, 'Are they even in a relationship?'. Well maybe Beam got used to since he never corrected Beam in the first place.

"Let's go home Beam." Beam bid farewell to his friend.

Days had passed and he felt that Beam had changed. He confronted Beam but he was always given reason that Beam was busy. He endured the sadness and loneliness. Until one day Beam told him the thing he never wanted to hear.

"Chahub, let's break up."

He wanted to cry and beg Beam not to but he does not want Beam to pity him more. He knows for sure that one of the reason Beam agreed to be his boyfriend was because of the agreement both families had. He knows that he had no right when he doesn't own Beam's heart.

"Is it because of Forth?" He asks while caressing the picture of Beam in his study table. As far as knows they were happy or was it just him who's happy?

"Beam, did you ever love me?" He can't help it. He needed to know. Silence filled the room and he didn't hear any response. He left a heavy sigh. He does not need to hear the answer anymore because he knew deep in his heart that Beam never loved him.

"Just be happy Beam." He said while getting out of his room. He got to his motorbike and endlessly drove with no destination in mind. He stopped on a bridge where he yelled and cried all his pain away. He thought of jumping off the bridge but his feet won't move. He felt pathetic.

The next morning, he decided to stay at his apartment and the Baramee's agreed not much to Beam's surprise. His parents had given this as a gift before they died and he was about to use it not until he gets to college. But it seems he's going to be using it early. He is not running away but he needs time to heal his broken heart.

Days and months had passed. He didn't hear anything from Beam at all. He tried to move on but he can't. Sometimes he wonders if Beam thinks about him or if Beam misses him. If Beam's being treated well or if Beam's lover makes him upset.

He just stares at the night sky at his apartment's window and sigh.

He can't just forget his first love.

And he knows, he shouldn't ask about his ex-lover anymore.

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Grammatical errors and misspelled words might be present.

The videos, music, and photos used are not mine.

Enjoy.