Playing With Fire (Lesbian)(Not Edited)

Chapter 21

A few hours after the restaurant run in with Lysette, I came home from driving around. On my way down the hall to my apartment, I find Janell leaning against my door. I sigh and proceed to unlock it without truly acknowledging her. I open it and walk in, she follows quietly.

"You really like her." She says.

I grab a bottle of water out of my fridge and open it. Before I take a sip, I nod curtly. 

"You never got like that about me." She laughs dryly. "I'm not upset about that but I came here to apologize about Lysette."

"You didn't do anything." I deadpan. 

"Yeah that's why I'm apologizing. I just stood there. I think I was just surprised to see her acting like that. You know me and her aren't really together but I still expected her to- well I don't know."

"Act like you were standing there?" I ask.

"Well yeah. But what can I do though, It's not like I have a right to chastise her considering the situation."

We move to my living room and plop down on the sofa. "Are you and her getting back together?" I ask.

"Nah, I think we are history but we do share my tattoo shop. That's actually why we were having lunch in the first place."

"Well do you want to be with her?"

"No. I have done enough damage. I realize that If I did try to get back with her. It would just be for selfish reason. I broke that trust and I know her. She won't ever really get over that. So I just intend on being a reliable business partner and friend with time."

I drink my water and just sit in silence, not really knowing what to say to that.

"So what about you and Amari?" She asks.

"What about us?"

"So there is an us."

I shake my head. "No there is no 'us', I mean it's just a lot of factors. We have a vibe and I do like her. It's just that she has so much stuff outside of trying to have real relationship so it's-"

"Let me guess, it's complicated."

I chuckle, "yeah that word seems to sum up a lot things lately."

"You ain't never lied." Janell laughs. "Well atleast we were able to clear things up between us."

"Yeah, I'm not going to lie. I just knew your ass was just trying to get me drunk in the hopes of us fucking again."

She starts laughing harder. "Nah, I meant what I said. I would rather have you as a friend then nothing at all. Even if the girl you like hates me."

"Yeah she really don't fuck with you." I laugh along with her. "Well it's not a bad as it use to be but nah J, she don't fuck with you."

"I don't really give a fuck. As long as we cool, I don't care."

My phone starts ringing again. I look at it and see it's Amari. I don't answer it because I'm not sure what to say to her just yet. I'm honestly afraid, I'm way more invested than she is. It's a sucky feeling and I wish I could say that I don't normally fall victim to the mentality but I would be lying to myself. 

"Why didn't you answer it?"

Sighing heavily, "I feel like it's shaping up to be one of those one sided things. Trying to give us room to breath."

"That's dumb Naomi." She says frankly and I gasp. "You won't know until you tell her how you feel."

"It's too soon though. I'm just going to give her a day to think."