under the yellow light ➸ meanplan/2wish

UTYL #22

Saint

Its been days since Zee came here. He isn't also answered my calls and text. I am worried what happen to him. The last time I saw him when his brother make a scene here. But then a sudden text popped out from my screen. It was Zee and he is coming here.

Weirdly I felt something off or maybe I am just paranoid.

I've waited for him an hour after that text. But when he came. He didn't approach me to kiss me or what. He went straight on our room. I followed him after a minute and seeing him packing his things.

"What's happening??" confusely went to him and seeing him packing his clothes from the closet. He stopped then jerked back at me.

I don't like his warm smile painting to his face. "What's going on?" so I asked him because I sense something.

He walk closer to me and pull me to a hug. He kissed the top of my head. "We've been together for a long time. I swear that was the best moment of my life. Be with you and love you the way I can" I pushed him little bit. Faced him and cup his face. I don't like the tone of his voice.

"Tell me Zee, what is really going on?" but Zee was just keep smiling at me and it makes me more paranoid.

"Stop smiling like that!! You making me anxious!" I punched his chest. I was biting my lower lip cause I don't wanna break  down and cry helplessly in front of him.

"Lets break up" the tears that I've been holding left my eyes.

"Are you kidding me?"

"You know those people who fell in love and met in wrong time and place. That was us. I was just selfish. No I became that selfish to take you and to be with me"

"What are you saying?"

"I am setting you free Saint"

"Zee"

"Its hard for me to let you go--"

"Then don't let me go please. You are the only I have"

"Saint, we both need to let each other go. Please"

"Dont leave me. Don't do this to me! You loved me right???"

"Letting you go was the most regretful thing I will do but also the thing that can make things right"

"Zee.."

"I love you so much Saint. I will never forget that you let me love you"

It was a vivid dream but when I open my eyes as I realise it wasn't that dream. I look around reality hits me hard, his stuff already gone. The room feels gloomy. I felt alone again. I don't think I can bare live a life without Zee. I dont realise that I  eventually went dependent with him cause he took care of me after my family disown me.

Been laying for hours and have blank space on my mind. Someone knock on the door but I have no energy or mood to open it so I ignore it completely. I shut my eyes down and I badly want to ignore the world.

"Saint..."

Perth? What the hell he is here?

"Uhm?? Zee gave me the spare key. But I swear I don't really want to open the door on my own cause its weird that I dodge here. But you didn't answer the door so I thought something happen t--"

"What do you want?" all this time the Perth I always know was the one who ashamed and humiliated me everytime we run to each other. "I am doing okay. You can now go" lied. I lied... I don't want him to see me again being pathetic just like the last time he pushed me away.

"You are not. You've been not around in the campus. That's why I came here to check you--"

"I said I am okay. I am okay!!! That I don't need anyone or anything!! Just leave me alone!!!" I let out and vent it out my anger to him.

"Liar"

"What?? When I am that honest to you. Did you give me a damn about it? Did you believed me? Did you listen to me?? So what now if I am lying to you?" Perth only bowed his head. I let him believe what he want to believe even though its hurting me but if that made him feel ease. I don't care about myself. Cause I know somehow I did really something behind his back before.

He went closer to me and reached my hand.

"Can we start over again?" I only stare at him. He suddenly lean his head more closer to my face. Claiming my lips. He close his eyes but I only remain my eyes open. This lips once claim mine. Its still the same but the feelings are now absurd. I can't feel anything but only hatred and regrets. I let him kiss me for a second before could release me. He look shocked at his action but I remain my poker face.

I wiped my lips and painted my face disgusted. I glare at him.

"What do you think of me?? What's wrong with the two of you?? Are you playing my feelings?? Zee left me nothing just like you left me nothing and now what?? You asked me for second chance?? You cant earn my heart that easy Perth. You made me like this a dependent broken person" I push him away and get up from my bed.

I don't want to associate my life again to this two brothers. Especially now I realize thing.

"I don't love you anymore Perth"

"Why? Cause you are in love with Zee?" I smirked at him.

"You think I love him? I only used him" Liar.

"Eyes can't lie Saint" I know but only my eyes can speak the truth but I am not.

I will pretend. I don't want him to see me this weak. I'll be the person he believes I was.

Mean

"You want hotdogs?" Prae only cry for a good couple of minutes when I met her here.

"I don't know if I am going to be mad at you or what? But I figured it out and Plan also admitted at me that he likes you. Remember our school trip? Yeah I know its obvious that there something between on you two" I only grabbed her and hug her tight. I will always love my bestfriend

"I am so sorry for being that neglectful friend of yours. I don't even know how to start or how to say to you--"

"You wouldn't think that I can't accept you right? Tell me that it didn't cross to your mind?"

"Its not that like but, I was just afraid"

"You don't have to be afraid of. I am your best friend Mean. And seeing you happy and in love with the person makes you happy. Who am I to intrude or to against it?"

"Prae" I don't deserve you.

"So in order to completely to forgive you. You'll treat me a hotdog and cold cola"

"Deal." we both smile to each other.

I'll make it up to her. I promise.

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a/n: been a long time!!! i hope you enjoy this chapter!! thank you for keep supporting it!