under the yellow light ➸ meanplan/2wish

UTYL #3

Mean

"No! We won't go to their party. Okay? I agreed to go with you already. You can't drag me there. You know I'm not comfortable being with so many people" after that guy from the tempting band that invited all of us to their party. She keeps insisting that I go with her again to that party. Of course, being his protective best friend. A party like that won't do any good things. I don't want to see Prae being wasted or worst disrespecting those assholes we will meet there.

"What did I tell you before? You need to let go of yourself and have some fun. Stop hiding in your glasses and be the innocent guy. We're in the 21st century and teens like us need some fun too" she keeps persuading me with her words. But nah I still don't want it.

"We have classes tomorrow. We have to go home and rest" I reminded her in case she forgot that we are still students and we have responsibilities in school. But she just throws a tantrum at me and it won't work for me. I grab her hand and make her drag me out here.

"Such a kill joy Mean urgh!" she keeps complaining while I'm still dragging her. When we reach the outside already. I let go of her hand and turned to her. She is still wearing her upset face.

"Fine let's go home. Neena was there also I thought you guys could make up there" Then she walked first and left me dumbfounded.

"Wait what did you say?" I want to confirm if I heard it right.

She turns at me and gives me a plain look.

"She is going to that party too"

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I ate all my words earlier and I'm here at this party. Crowded people make me feel hard to breathe but I have to chill and act like I am not afraid. I have to find Neena, she didn't respond to my text or pick up my calls. I badly need to see her.

"Mean can we just stay for a bit and have drinks? We've been searching for almost 30 mins, I'm tired already" She looks exhausted cause she's been tagging me all along. I sighed and I nodded.

"Okay I'll just leave you here, I'm going to come back here for you" I didn't wait for her response and I left her in the corner of the pool area.

I keep searching in the middle of these wild people. How come these people can breathe so fine here? My chest hurt already and I was nervous because at any time my asthma attack me.

When I finally saw her, I felt relief because I'd seen her already. She was standing there while swaying his hips and talking to her friends. I was about to approach her when some guy just cling to his waist. The guy wasn't familiar with me so I decided to approach her.

"Neena??" her friends and that guy turn at me also. She looked surprised that I was there. I was about to ask who is that guy. When the guy just steps forward and hides Neena behind his back. He looks down at me with his disapproval.

"Who are you?" I gulp as he looks at me like he wants to throw a punch at me. I am expecting that Neena will stand up for me because as far as I know, I am pursuing her and she knows it.

"Don't mind him, Mike, he is just a classmate of mine" she eyed me to get out of her sight. I was stunned at that moment when that guy pulled him to a kiss.

I didn't know what to do or to say. Cause first of all I don't have that right to be mad in the first place because she's not even my girlfriend. I like her but it's not enough to make her mine. I felt like so a small piece of shit in front of her. I'm hurt but I know I have to used to it. Neena did it many times, to deny me, push me away, and ignore me like she didn't even know me.

I didn't say anything and stormed off to that place. I don't want to go home and be ashamed so that I blend into the people like mad ones. I danced and blasted out, took all the beer and alcohol that I randomly picked, and snatched it from someone while they still drinking it. I'm going to be wasted until I forget the incident earlier.