PERFECT (ChanRose PCY FANFIC)

29: LOST

29: LOST
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After 3 years...

The main vocalist of Blackpink is finally having her most awaited solo album. Every Blinks are excited especially those who are Rosé stans, they know that their blonde bias would nail her solo performance with her angelic voice!

"My life's been magic, seems fantastic
I used to have a hole in the wall with a mattress. Funny when you want it, suddenly you have it.. you found our your goal is just plastic."

The singer sang a song that she wrote. For fans, they thought that it is a song for her career in k-pop. That she is singing about working her whole life and realizing that after all her hard work, she is still the same Rosé.

But for Rosé, it's different. Somehow..

"Everyday.. everynight.. I've been thinking back about you and I
Everyday.. everynight.."

Why does it feel different? Why does it feel like there's something missing in her life for the whole three years?

There's something with the song, with the lyrics, and with why she wrote it before that accident but she forgot. She only saw it just a year ago and she just finished writing it a few months before YG announced her upcoming solo.

"I worked my whole life just to get right, just to be like.. look at me I'm never coming down. I worked my whole life just to get by, just to realize
Everything I need is on the ground."

Yes, she admit that when she rewrite the song.. she wrote it about her working experience. But with the first lyrics before she had the accident, she has a feeling it isn't about that.

She just don't know of what the lyrics is about. She doesn't.. remember.

"My world's been hectic, seems electric but I've been waking up with your voice in my head and I'm tryna send a message and you know that
Every single minute, I'm without you I regret it.."

Without who? Did she write the lyrics for someone? Eversince she woke up three years ago from a car accident, it feels like she's lost.

She know her name, she know her family, she know her members. She know herself but she has a feeling that there is something that she forgets and when she open up to her members about it, all they say is that she has been traumatized by that accident.

And of course she is.

All of her members already have a driver's license but her? She is now afraid to drive a car.

And she is having nightmares.

A vogue dream that she tend to forget a few seconds after she woke up crying in the middle of the night. Thus, her Jisoo Unnie decided to be her roommate after she woke up on a three weeks of being in a comma. Them being roommates lasted for two months before Rosé had the courage to sleep on her own again.

Rosé heave a deep sighed as she sat on a bench while staring at the gray clouds.

Her performance just ended and she successfully manager to escaped her manager and staffs. For sure her manager would nag at her when she comes back but she want to have an alone time for herself.

***Flashback

Rosé's head was still aching when she woke up. It felt like her mind is floating in the air and her senses were faint.

Her eyes were blurry and she is confused of her surrounding.

Why is the ceiling white? Why does it smell like alcohol and disinfectant?

"Rosé!" Jennie's voice was the first thing she heard seconded by Lisa's gasped. "I'm gonna call the doctor!"

Rosé saw Lisa run out and Jennie walked closer to her with a tear stained cheeks. She forced herself to sit and was welcome by Jennie's tight hug as she heard her friend's cry.

"U-Unnie.." she muttered, unable to move because she is confused of why was her Jennie Unnie crying?

"You're finally awake." Jennie whispered as her embrace tightened. "We are all worried. You're finally awake Rosie Posie.."

"W-w-what happened?" Was all Rosé could ask.

That's when the doctor and nurses enter her room with her Jisoo Unnie and Lisa. The Doctor asked her follow up questions that she found hard to answer.

They say she has an amnesia, a post-traumatic amnesia that she couldn't understand.

"Don't think too much about it. It's not important." Jisoo would always say. "It's better if you don't remember."

"I'm sorry Rosé.. but the Doctor says not to force you to remember." Was Jennie's response.

And Lisa would always change the topic to distract her before she could even ask.

*** End of Flashback

Rosé huffed on her cheek as she continue to ponder on what was lost on her memory.

They say it's nothing. It's not that important. That she should move on.

But the thing is.. move on from what?

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(A/N: Short update for today~

Yep, we are back to my weekly updates because I have been busy lately. I am also experiencing a lot of headaches lately :< I also have a lot of schoolworks and projects so I'll be busy for the following weeks.

BUT I PROMISE TO UPDATE AS OFTEN AS I COULD, BOTH IN PERFECT AND IN AIIYL STORY~

Anyhow, thank you for the wait! And thank you for all the votes, the appreciative comments, the reads, and for saving my story on your reading list<3

#Lovelots! )