The new era begins (natasha x female reader)

Chapter 10

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'Why do I always have to wake up with excruciating pain?' I thought to myself. I tried to remember what happened Yesterday afternoon. And then I remembered, the electricity coursing through my veins, burning me from the inside out. Boiling my blood, I had a bruise on the place the electronic touched my body. It was like a bullet but without the hole. I tried to stand up but my body failed me, resulting in me falling out of bed. I gathered myself and went to sit on the edge of the bed. I had an unbearable headache but I don't think it's from the shock. There was something inside me fighting, trying to surface, I pushed the feeling deep down and stuffed it in a little box. I had no place in this world, and if love is weakness then so are emotions. 

I was bored out of my mind, switching between staring at the wall or the clock. I didn't bother knocking on the door, if they wanted to talk to me they were going to have to come in here sooner or later. I wouldn't try to escape immediately, I had learned from my previous mistake. I had no idea of the layout of this compound nor how good the security was. I know that I was good, but even I was not stupid enough to try and take down all of the Avengers and their friends on my own. I would just have to play the long game, try and talk my way out of this one. Although I had no idea on how I was going to do that. I had to get in contact with Whitehall somehow, I knew Dreykov was killed just before the Avengers had kidnapped me. I had to let him know that I was still alive, but for some reason I didn't want to go back. It was the feeling that caused my headache earlier. Something or someone was telling me to stop fighting and give in to all these feelings, but I couldn't I had to finish my mission. I had to kill the Avengers. I pushed the feelings deep down again, suppressing every urge to scream as my headache came back.

There were flashes of another live one I didn't live or so I thought, about a job and messy apartment. I didn't recognize it but the headache got more and more intense. I couldn't hold it any more. I slide off the bed falling to my knees grasping my head screaming in pain. Trying to drown out the white noise that once again entered my mind.

Natasha
I was almost at her cell when I heard screams, I ren up to her door. The two guards that were standing there didn't move. "What the hell is going on here?" I ask looking them dead in the eye. "She is screaming miss" One of them answers. "Yes I can hear that sherlock, for how long?" I say a little annoyed at their stupidity. "Uhm I think about 10 minutes" the other says more questioning then telling. "Why didn't you call for me?" I say now very angry that she had been in pain for god knows how long, although I don't know if she is even in pain. Before the guards could answer I walk past them opening the cell door and slowly entering her cell. I didn't know if it was a distraction to get me close so I kept my distance, prepared for any attack she may try. "y/n you alright" I ask trying to get her attention. I don't think she heard me as she didn't move at all. She had her head in her hands whilst sitting on her knees, which made it hard for me to read her. "Y/N you there" I say a little louder this time. Her screaming had stopped and had turned into a soft cry since the moment I had entered the cell. She still didn't react to me whatsoever. I shifted a little bit closer still wary of anything she might try. Once I got close enough to touch her I stopped, asking her once more if she could hear me I slowly leaned forward gently placing a hand on her shoulder. 

She looked up immediately, I looked her straight in the eye before she jumped up her hands going for my neck. I wasn't sure but I thought I could see some blue in her eyes, it was just a flickering but it was there. Unfortunately as soon as I saw it, it was gone again. Her hand were still on my neck, she was pushing me against the wall. I moved my arm in between her arms smashing my elbow in her elbow causing her to let go of my neck. I quickly launched forward gripping my arms around her waist slamming her back to the ground. She gasped as she hit the floor, grunting in pain. She must have still been injured from all the previous fighting and torturing because it really wasn't a fair fight. "If you're going to fight me at least wait till your strong enough, so we can make it a fair fight." I say smirking at her while straddling her waist with my legs. I was sitting right on top of her. She looked up at my so we were looking in each other's eyes, I saw it again a small flickering of blue before going back to grey. 

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She was sitting right on top of me, I wanted to fight but I couldn't. This stupid voice in my head just wouldn't let me. I braced myself to force her off of me. I pushed her off but instead of jumping after her, I crawled back a bit creating more space between us. I could she her face change for a second as if she was shocked that I didn't attack her. She was quick to hide it but I saw it on her face, her lips were just slightly raise as if she was pleased with herself. I did want to kill her, I had to. So why didn't I? It was strange seeing her sit in front of me not making any move, her guard up ready for any move that I would make. We both didn't move, we both didn't say anything, we just sat there staring at each other. Her glance burning holes in my skull, with an expression I couldn't make out. "Would you stop that, you're staring" I say a tying to sound unfazed by her facade. "Can't I take a moment to admire who's in front of me" she say, wait, what, why is she flirting. She completely caught me off guard. She must have noticed the small change in my exterior because she was smirking again. "What do you want?" I say anger clearly present in my voice. "Relax I'm not here to fight with you, although I didn't mind sitting on you lap." She says wiggling her eyebrows. I brushed it off, she was probably just flirting in an attempt to get my talking. "If you come a little closer I can choke you again if that's your thing." I say smirking back, I wasn't going to fall for her flirting but I could use it in my advantage. "Nha, I rather do the choking" she smiled back. I wasn't really that good in reading people but it look like she was actually enjoying herself.

We were both sat on either side of the cell, with our backs against the wall. "Aren't you going to introduce yourself, I usually try to get to know a person before trying to get into their pants." I say sarcastically looking in her eyes. It was just now hitting me how beautiful her eyes were. I was drowning in her emerald green eyes before her voice snapped me out of it. "I believe you already know how I am, but I you insist my name is Natasha Romanoff." "oke Nat, how nice to formally meet you." I say sarcastically giving her a wink. I could see she was not amused that I gave her a nickname. I felt kind of guilty for being rude, wait why did I feel guilty I had to kill her, what do I care whether she likes me or not. "So I have to tell you how I am, but you're not going to tell me your name."She says arching one eyebrow. "Y/N Y/L/N" I say simply looking at my socks. I wasn't allowed any shoes. 
We then sat in silence again, it was strange because it wasn't necessary a uncomfortable silence. We just both sat there looking at each other, both trying to read the other person, trying to find out what was going on in each other's minds. I wasn't sure what she was thinking, her face remained completely neutral. Although I may seem relaxed my mind was racing. I kept struggling to push down every emotion, but it was hard every time I look at her I got this warm fuzzy feeling inside me. I stopped looking at her after a while, now I was just staring at my feet deep in thought. Once again it was her voice that brought me back to the room.

AN
oke so I know I'm messing up, I think the story is getting worse with every chapter I add. At this point I considering canceling the story. It's not that I don't have ideas for any new ones, it's just that I honestly don't think you guys like it. I'm might try a few more chapters but as I said I'm not sure whether or not I should continue this story.

To end this chapter on a good note, What is something that makes you happy?
For me it's being able to play sports, it always helps me clear my mind.