Mentions of suicide attempts, self harm cuts and scars, child abuse and suicide (in drawings, but still)
Don't try doing any of this please, and if ur not confortable with it you can skip where i'll leave the "////" before the lines where it all appears
Enjoy ^^
The next day I wake up hearing Mickey screaming "I'M SORRY RAPH I'LL ERASE IT!" then I try sit up on the couch, falling face flat on the floor since I just woke up
"porra..." (fuck...) I mutter while getting up with a red nose, then look at Raph chasing Mickey, then i walk up to them and get in front of Raph before he gets Mickey, making him stop on the spot
"Sorry for waking you up dudette, but Raph was threatning to shove the phone down my throat" he say hiding behind me, then I go close to Raph and do grabby motions like a child
He huffs and pick me up while I hug his neck, hiding my face in it
"thanks bae.." I mutter still sleepy and look at Mickey while he looks between me and Raph
"Wait, you two are dating now?"
"yea, I told you before I love Raph, and guess i'm lucky enough to him like me back" I say smiling a bit
"and just warning, if you take a pic of me and Raph while we're sleeping it'll be the last time you see your phone mkay?"
"O-okay" he says holding his phone in a protective way, then I mutter something in Raph ear and he roll his eyes before walking to the kitchen I get down and make my hot chocolate before sitting on top of the kitchen counter and drinking it
"e se eu ensina portugues pros seus irmãos?" (what if I teached portuguese to your brothers?) I ask looking at Raph and he nods
"I think it would be cool," he replies while drinking some coffee, then I finish my chocolate and kiss his cheek before goin to talk to Donnie, Leo and Mickey about it, they agree and I try to teach them the best as I can, even if they can't understand much since I'm the worst teacher ever
The day ends with them at least knowing how the portuguese alphabet sounds like, I take a shower before dressing myself and remembering something I saw in another fanfic, one that the character of a movie came to the real world too
I look to the mirror and then to the wall on the other side of the bathroom
I wish I could go to the TMNT universe..
Then a white light appears on place of the wall and i look at it with squinted eyes, passing my hand throught it and when I know it's safe I pass my head too, seeing that the portal leads to the turtles lair (I call it like that, sorry if its not the right name) , I look around for a second before seeing splinter getting out of his room and staring right at me, I stare back then pull my head back from the portal, wishing it would close now
it do as told and I look at the wall for some seconds, touching it to make sure the portal isn't just invisible
I get out of the bathroom while smiling a bit and thinking to myself
they can go home now
And I can go with them, I can get out of this nightmare
I can have a happy life now.. I can have my happy ending....
I stop dead in my tracks when I'm between the corridor that leads to the rooms(and bathroom) and the living room
what if I can't live there with them?....
I think while looking down
/////HERE COMES THE TRIGGER TRAIN! ///////////
//////////TRIGGERS BELOW THE LINE! ///////////
then looking at the scars that fill my plain white arm
"eu mereço isso.. eu sou inutil.... eu sou um erro. eu nem devia ter nascido..."(i deserve it.. i'm useless.... i'm a mistake. i shouldn't even be born... )
I repeat to myself while i look at my favorite knife(a plain kitchen knife with a dark red handle), then I do the first cut on my wrist, hissing at the pain it brings, before letting out a pleasured sigh, seeing the beautiful red blood running down my hand and dripping on my sketchbook, close to various drawings of a sad looking short haired boy killing and hurting himself in various ways
Then I push the sketchbook away with my dominant hand and keep cutting my wrists, making at least 7 cuts on it, when the penny falls and I notice what I did I run to my bathroom and take the gause I keep on it, cleaning my cuts with a wet towel and bandaging it before cleaning my knife and goin to sleep
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" Lanna!" I hear Raph voice calling me and look up at him, getting a bit sad by his worried expression "sorry babes, just spaced out a bit.. " I say hugging him and he hugs me back without hesitation
"wanna talk about it? " I nod and walk to the couch with him, sitting on it and leaning on his shoulder when he sits close to me, he opens his mouth to talk
"I know how to bring you and your brothers home" I blurt out before he speaks after a second of silence
"what?.."
"i know bow to get you and your brothers to your universe... and i want to go with you" I say not looking at him "How? " he asks and I sigh
"I just need to wish to get to your universe and a portal appears, I know it sounds dumb, but i tried doing it in the bathroom when I was done with my bath and it worked, I even saw Master before i closed the portal" I say and yawn
"You can come with us if you really want, but I'll have to talk about that with my brothers before" he says and I nod sleepy, then get up and turn off the lights before opening the door to the my room and wishing to boys a good night, then I go back to the couch and lay close to Raph when I see he's already laying there, then I hug his hips and hide my face in his chest
"guess I'll have a lot of things to pack tomorrow..." I mumble before falling asleep with him
got a rush of creativity after drinking a mug of hot cocoa and eating a big sausage, so, hope you enjoyes this chapter ^^
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posted on 3/9/2021(day/month/year) at 1:16am
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into the real word - Raph x reader/oc
Fanfictionok, already clearing things out before y'all come saying that it isn't an x reader since i'm putting myself there, you can still read it as an x reader since the appearance is pretty neutral and won't affect much in the fanfic(except for an certain...
