Does it Hurt? Part 2

Change is not it..

Part 22 (this is a little different, Dani's and Dean's POV I know weird)

Dani's POV

the next couple of weeks went by fine.. Dawson saw his therapist every week, as long as the boys started school.. I have gotten job at the local coffee shop as a waitress which is nice, Dwayne has been a big help an I couldn't be more grateful.. my life was getting back on track until I got this one phone call from Portman himself.. this is how it lead up to that, (she's wearing the outfit above) I was outside weeding the garden as the boys were gone in school an I was the only one here since my mother was out for coffee with a friend and Dwayne was with Maya.. I felt my phone buzz in the back of my pocket so I grabbed it an answered it without checking the name which I wish I did

(on the phone)

Dani- hello?

I heard breathing on the other side before the person spoke up

??- Dani? we need to talk..

the voice was so familiar, that deep tough voice.. oh shit Dean?!

Dani- Dean? um wh-what do you need to talk about?

I was nervous to say the least, last time we spoke we were on the couch before he left

Dean- we need to talk about uh everything actually

everything? what is there to talk about?

Dani- um okay than, what's up?

don't chicken out now Dani..

Dean- Julie wants us to have a kid..

a what?!?

Dani- huh?? a kid? um w-why?

I try to stay calm but clearly failing

Dean- um we think we are uh ready.. she wants- I meant we want to start our family

ouch. ouch. OUCH.

Dani- you have 3 sons here, an you want another kid? what about them?

I could hear him chuckle

Dean- Dani, I will see my kids don't worry. having another kid won't do anything

I can feel the angry building but it's not my place to blow up

Dani- whatever, why are you even telling me this?

Dean- because you are the mother of my kids an you deserve to know what is happening

I scuffed

Dani- shocked you know respect

I didn't even let him respond before hanging up my phone an stuffing it in my back pocket, stormed inside walking into the kitchen where I chugged a water before I heard the front door open an close before footsteps reached the kitchen. I turned finally stopping drinking my water to see my mom

Di- how was the gardening?

I shrugged throwing my now empty bottle of water away before looking at her

Di- what happened? you are my daughter. I can read you like a book

I sighed an leaned against the counter looking at her as she walked to the sink 

D- Dean an Julie are trying for another kid.

she turned an looked at me clearly surprised

Di- already? didn't they just move in together?

D- yes! an they already want a kid! how crazy is that?!

my mom didn't answer at first so I figured she was trying to process until she broke out into a smirk making me confused

D- what? why are you smirking?

Di- I just think that it's not so much them having a kid together is bugging you

I crossed my arms over my chest looking at her

D- than what is it mama? what's bugging me if it ain't that? 

she chuckled making me even more confused

Di- I believe that you are just to afraid to let him go because you still love him even though you know you shouldn't..

I just stood there stocked with my eyes widen an my jaw dropped, she just smiled and walked out of the room without another word.. is that really the reason I was so upset about it?

Dean's POV (i know this is so weird haha)

the travel back to Chicago was quiet.. Julie was on her phone, it felt odd not having the kids yelling in the back or having Dani talking to me about things we needed to do.. in a weird way I felt like a piece of me was missing in a way.. I know I was a horrible person for doing what I did to her, I know that now.. I messed up an there is no reversing it which lead to the phone call.. Once she hung up I just stood there in my empty living room looking at my phone hoping she would call back.. being in this house, the house her an I got together, the house our kids grew up in, the house we planned to grow old in together.. but without her in it just feels in a way wrong

??- did she answer?

I snapped out of my thoughts an turned to see Julie leaning against the doorway that connected the kitchen an living room

De- um yeah she did..

Julie gave me a questioning look before walking over to me sitting on the back of the sofa looking at me

J- is everything okay? did she take it okay?

it shocks me how she can be so calm about this all, she practically ruined her ex best friends life and she acts like she don't care

De- she wasn't to fond of the idea..

Julie sighed an held onto my hand playing with my fingers.. her touch wasn't the same as Dani's, Dani's touch was soft an caring.. WHY THE FUCK AM I THINKING ABOUT THAT?!

J- she will just have to get over it than..

she stood up an kissed me.. you can imagine where it went from that.. but for some reason Dani was in the back of my mind, I know it's bad and I know it's wrong but I can't help it.. she won't leave my head