Soul Bound

Chapter 15

RPOV

I was in my room after my classes when there was a knock on the door. When I opened I saw my mother standing in the doorframe.

"Can I come in?" She sounded almost unsure of herself.

I hesitated for a moment, but being purposefully obnoxious wouldn't do me any favors.

"Sure." I stepped aside to let her in.

She started to look around the room. My room looked like the average teenage girl's room. Pictures of me and my friends, some clothes on the ground and a chair and books on the desk, and of course an unmade bed. I could tell though, my mother did not approve of my housekeeping skills. But she was wise not to comment.

She walked to the pictures. I could see a strange look in her eyes. Almost sad. There were mostly pictures of me and Lissa, laughing and joking. But there were some of Mason and Eddie too and a few recent ones which included Christian. Was she sad because she wasn't in any of the pictures? She wasn't in my life, so when were we supposed to have taken them.

"I am sorry."

My mother finally blurted out after staring at the pictures for 5 minutes. I had to support myself otherwise I would have stumbled over from surprise.

"You're what now?" I asked not believing I heard her right.

"I am sorry for this morning. I can see you have made excellent progress. And in light of recent events with Lord Dashkov, I suppose you both made the right decision in running away. And you're right. I don't have any right to comment on what you do and don't. I know the teachers here have raised you more than I have. But I am trying Rose. Maybe after Guardian Belikov leaves I can transfer here and I can take over your training. That way we can get to know each other."

All the things I wanted to hear for years came out of her mouth. She admitted I was good at something, and she said she made mistakes. Everything I wanted and needed from her for long.

But I could not focus on any of that right now. There was a part of her rant that would not allow me to think about all the other stuff.

"What do you mean, when Dimitri leaves?" I sounded desperate, I knew that.

"Lady Ozera has made him an offer to become her Guardian. Well more than her Guardian really. It will probably be the only possibility for him to have a resemblance of a normal life, have a family. Why wouldn't he take it?"

I could not breathe. I fell down back on the bed. This could not be happening. He wouldn't go, would he? Just because she offered didn't mean he would take it, right? He loved me. He loved me. I was sure of it. I never thought about having a normal life, and having a family. Did Dimitri?

My mother was oblivious to my inner turmoil and kept going on and on about what we could do once he left. I couldn't take it anymore.

"Mom, thanks for stopping by, I appreciate it. But it has been a long day and I am tired, could we talk about this another time?" I was on the verge of tears but I could not let my mother see me cry.

"Oh okay, I guess we will talk later." My mother walked out of the room, slightly annoyed. I knew I was cutting her off, but I had to.

I fell back on the bed and let all the tears come. My mind was racing. It was imagining all kinds of different scenarios. But not in a single one were Dimitri and I happily together. How could we, when there was so much against us?

Was I being selfish? I wanted Dimitri with me, but being with me wouldn't only keep him from a family. It would be frowned upon. But with Tasha, he could leave the Moroi politics mostly behind. Tasha lived in the human world. He could too. He could actually be something else than a Guardian. Regardless of my feelings or Tasha's, didn't he deserve that?