A Feather Quill And A Thin Line.

Another day. Another pain. (chapter 1)

Y/N walked down the busy hall with her/his/their friends Hermione, Ron, and Harry as they made their way to the great hall for breakfast. Hermione, Ron, and Harry talked as I stayed quiet like always. I never really talk. Most students and teachers thought I was mute but that's not the case. I learned it was best to keep my mouth shut and just disappear from reality. Make no one think I'm here. Well it works on most poeple. Malfoy and his goons usually bully me and the others. I dont know why these three are even my friends. Theres nothing special about me.. I'm just a waste of space and time here. I'm.. a half breed.. a mistake.. as we all sit down for breakfast I look down at my plate. I'm not really hungry as Dumbledore talks to us I let my mind wonder as I subconsciously look over at snape who was looking at Dumbledore while he talked. Theres something about snape that just interests me. I. I cant put my finger on it. Hes the only one I've spoke to one time when I had gotten detention with him I had spoke to him for the first time I was pretty quiet but I know he still heard me when his normal expression turned slightly shocked after that he looked at me for a few seconds before he had returned to his regular unreadable expression and responded to me. Now when ever I need to talk I go to him. I dont know why I do. I just. I feel safe around him. Others are usually frightened by him but I'm not. I know theres something more to him. I just need to get him to open up. I want him to be able to talk to me like how I talk to him. I snapped out of my thoughts when I see snape look over at me and I look away from him to my plate blushing a little. Why am I blushing? Why when he looked back at me I felt so flustered I could feel butterflies flutter in my stomach. I shake the thought out of my head as I heard Dumbledore dismissed us to get to class. I watch as everyone got up and start heading to their classes my friends had left me not realizing that I didnt follow. I waited till my side of the tables kids finnaly passed me and got up heading to defence against the dark arts class. I never liked professor Lockhart. He.. Always gave me the creeps. I'd catch him looking at girls in an inappropriate manner.. I sit at my desk my writing book next to me incase I need to write what I want to say and a set my black feather quill next to it getting out my bottle of ink. Everyone else was talking and waiting for professor Lockhart to come in to start class. He finnaly comes in and quiets everyone down to begin the lesson. My brain starts to wonder as I start doodling in my writing book. Lockhart snaps his fingers by my head and I flinch out of my thoughts and look up at him "It's a lovely drawing Y/N but it's not the lesson so I'm going to have to give you detention." He says a small smile comes to his face making me shiver. He goes back to teaching and tha class goes on as normal when the bell rings I get up hoping to get out of there before he notices "ah miss/mister/mx Y/N remember you have to stay here." I curse in my head. I dont like the idea of me and lockhart being alone together. He already makes me uncomfortable and on edge. I walk back over to his desk he had a chair next to his desk facing to him and gestured to it wanting me to sit there. I sit down and the chair creaks a little under my weight as he sits in his "go ahead and finish your work miss/mister/mx Y/N" he says as he started grading papers. I sit my stuff next to his desk and my work on it since I didnt have a table of my own.. I noticed he had stopped writing stuff down and I didnt dare look up. I could feel his eyes on me. I got more uncomfortable making it hard to focus on my work. "You know you could leave sooner if you did me a favor Y/N" he said putting his pen down. I swallow a bit of spit and looked over at him hesitantly.. he moved his chair a bit closer making me want to move away. "I'm sure you'd like it" I could feel his hand on my leg. I shook my head no and moved my leg away. "Really? I didnt even tell you what it is yet." he put his hand under my chin and held it a bit tight moving my head to face him and moved his face closer. I push my head away and stumbled up out of my chair. He got up as well. "I'm sure youd like it" he grabbed my wrist and pulled me to him grabbing my cheek and kissing it. I quickly pulled my arm out of his grasp and ran out of the classroom. I didnt hear what he had said when I left I just wanted to get out of there. I soon realised that.. I left my stuff there. Hed surely be waiting for me. I deside to go to snapes classroom it was free period and I usually come to snapes class anyways. I knock on the door and he replied with a "come in." I shyly walk into the classroom. He was writing something on the board to prepare for next class. "What is it miss/mister/mx L/N" he said not looking away from the board. "U-um I.. I was wondering um.." I started to feel embarrassed for wanting to ask him to get my stuff. Hed wonder why. How would I tell him. "Well? Spit it out." He said finnaly putting down the piece of chalk and turning to me. I look away embarrassedly and finnaly say "c-can you come with me to get my stuff i-in professor lockharts class?.." He raises an eyebrow in responce. "That's what you come in here to ask? Why should I?" I look down and fiddle with my hands. How am I supposed to say that lockhart was trying to sexually assault me just a few minutes ago.. maybe I should have just asked one of my friends.. why would he care anyways? "Well?" He asked pulling me out of my thoughts. "U-um.. its.. complicated.. He.. um..." He waited for my answer. "Just.. please?.." I wait for his answer and he sighs walking to the door while replying with "Fine." I walk behind him as we made our way to lockharts classroom. I start to get nervous and uncomfortable again.. snape notices and raises an eyebrow. "What's the matter miss/mister/mx L/N?" I look up at him then back down. I am comfortable talking to him but.. about this I think telling him might make it worse.. he looks back ahead of us realizing that I dont want to talk about it yet and enters lockharts class "Ah Y/N I was waiting for you to come get your stuff. You kinda left it here." Snape waits at the door as I hesitantly walk up to lockharts desk. He had put mystuff on it and I hesitated but took it and quickly made my way back to the safety of snape. "Good day snape" professor lockhart said as we left. We made our way back to snapes classroom as he closed the door he asked. "What happened between you and lockhart?" He had turned to me I started to get nervous as I sat down in a chair and looked down. "I know something was up. The way you walked over to the desk and back to me and also how you asked me to go with you in the first place." I didnt want to say it as I grabbed my quill and note book and wrote down 'he just makes me really uncomfortable..' snape didnt really buy it but went back to his desk anyways.. the day continued as usual.. I had went back to my dorm in Y/H (Your House slitherin, ravenclaw- ya know) and got dressed for bed..