A Feather Quill And A Thin Line.

Broken Trust.. Broken Hearts. (chapter 13)

He poured me a glass of water and sat it on the table in front of us next to the book and quill he gave me to communicate to him with. Though I didnt feel like sharing what just happened. He sat across from me holding onto a glass of water himself.. I stare at the floor as the tears had stopped at this point. He took a sip of water before asking "do you mind telling me what happened before you ran into me miss L/n.." his voice sympathetic. It's just pity. I thought to myself. I stayed staring at the ground. Snape had truly hurt me. I didnt mean to get in his head. I was just tired.. I just wanted him to stop for the day.. I started to tear up as I think about it. "Y/n. I cant help you if you dont tell me what happened." He simply stated. Through my blurry eyes I write down what had happened. I didnt tell him what I saw of snapes mind. I didnt want to ruin my already broken relationship with him. Well. If you could have even called it that.. he just shook his head a little and said "I'm sure hes just a bit taken back and yea a bit angry but Im sure he'll be able to forgive you. You did nothing wrong after all." I give him one of my small smiles. But inside.. I didnt believe what he was saying. I'd just have to find out for myself I guess. I wrote down an okay and got up leaving his lounge.

I wake up in my bed. It may feel warm but it wasnt comforting. I wipe my tired and damp eyes.. I cant even believe that I fell asleep with all my crying. I decided to skip breakfast. No one would care if I do anyways. I get in the shower letting the scorching water run down my back and chest. It burned. But I liked it.. I looked at my arms as the cuts stung the worst. The healing wounds screaming in agony as I just watched them.. I got out of the shower when I decided that I wasted enough water and got dressed to hide my body that was now red and hot from the water. Being under all of this clothes didnt make me feel any cooler. I grabbed my stuff and made it to my first class..

I wall down the halls to potions. Dreading when I walk through the door to see snape. Normally It light up at the thought but not now. As he didnt acknowledge me coming in or sitting in the back away from instead of the front next to his desk.. It hurt my heart when he just kept writing not saying anything..

The whole class he ignored my existence. Making the pain in my heart grow along with the sadness that was starting to eat at me again.
I knew he didnt want to be around me..
I can tell he doesnt want anything to do with me.
I dont blame him.
I broke his trust.
So he broke my heart.

It was time for me and snape to go to my parents muggle house. I lead the way down the road. Snape didnt even want to hold my hand to fast travel here. A feeling of dread started consuming me again.. the fact that snape hasn't said a word to me this whole time doesnt help. I turn into the drive way and a head up to the front door. Snape following close behind. I knock on the door with the knocker and I hear my mom making her way to the door.
When she opens it she was about to scowl and yell at me but she saw snape behind me and she chose to act nice. "Hello my baby!" She hugs me and she gently held my face. "How have you been? why didnt you come home earlier? Are you hungry? Whose your friend?" We barely make it through the front door and shes already bombing me with fake questions.. I can tell that snape isnt buying the fake persona my mom was putting on. Hes seen what shes done so. "Um sorry mom I just came back to get something.." she nods her head "ok then dont mind me I'll be in the kitchen. I heard her mudder something under her breath as she went to the kitchen. I lead him to the room I used to share with Sei. My side having yellow sheets and a small yellow rug and a bookshelf with few books. And Sei's having a light green sheets a full book case and a desk where she'd do school work at. I walk over to my bed. "You can look.. I'm sure you wont find it.." I sit down on my bed and look down at the floor as he looks through my bookshelf. It didnt take him long to look through them all. "I told you you wouldnt-" I get cut off as he went over to Sei's bookshelf. I got up and moved in front of him. "W-what do you think your doing!" He rolled his eyes. "I'm looking for the book." His monotoned voice still hurt me but I didnt move from in front of him. "I'll. Search this shelf.." I turn around looking through them putting them back in the places she left it to not disturb them. I saw a book behind some short ones and I pull it out wiping the dust off of it.. 'property of f/n l/n.' I turn around to show him and he just turns around flipping his robes and started to leave the house. I hold the book close and follow him out "bye mom.." I closed the door behind us as we make our way back to Hogwarts. Walking back to the train and getting on. It started to drive to the school when there was a loud bang. And the whole train shook...