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Belladonna????

"The fucking bloody hell" I say
"Megan!" Izzy says to me
"My stomach hurts so freaking bad!"
"Do you want me to call 911?"
"No!"
"Megan!!!! I'm going to call"
Izzy calls. even though I said not to! But I'm glad she did? The doctor said I had eaten poison? How? When? Why?
The doctor asked me
"Did you poison yourself?"
"No"
"Are you sure megan"
"Megan this is serious, did you do it because of you know Tay" I stop izzy before she said his hole name
"NO! I don't try to kill myself because of people! I maybe think about it. But I don't do it!" I say with frustration
"Okay okay I believe you" izzy said to me. she looked serious and she looked me right in my eyes to make sure she knew I was serious about her being serious.
Later that day we left the hospital. the doctors said they'll call when they have what the poison is.
At 7:40pm izzy left to her bed and play CSGO on her computer. I stayed and watch Netflix I watched divergent 2 times. 4 hours I went in the bathroom and locked the door so no one can come in. I grab my razor and started to cut my arm after I cut my left arm it said fictional friend then on my right arm is just cuts after cuts and cuts and cuts! Now I wish the poison had worked better, I'll bet the person is even more mad than me that the poison didn't work. I come out the bathroom with blood dripping off my arms izzy stands there. I run off I escape from the window. Izzy screams "why?"
Izzy runs off to me.
"NO!" Izzy says to me but I ignore her anyway
"Go back, your going to make a scene" before I can stop myself by thinking twice about what I said izzy stops and stares into the stars like they're going to help. Izzy turns into a wolf then run to the woods. Oh no! What did I just say? I try to find the nearest stick to jab into my arm. I'm a hopeless mess. I wonder if izzy is ever going to for give and for get all about this like any other time.....I hope.
I went back to my dorm room through the window. I closed the window turned on the lights sat in the computer chair and thought to myself why? Why am I doing this to myself? Can I kill myself. I say to myself hoping those's words won't come out again.
Later that night at twelve-ish I don't remember, I went to the bathroom to pick out splinters from when I stuck a stick in my arm. All theses thoughts came in my mind taylor taylor he is the one, he playing hard to get. if he was playing hard to get WHY DID I WANTED TO kill myself. I said it again ahh. No one would be that cruel.
Next day
I wake up and izzy is still not here...I guess I have to forget and forget EVERYTHING I could of hate her and be friends with taylor or even more than.......... No not letting theses thoughts in my head.
You'll never forget. you'll always regret. no turning back. Face the future. deal with what you have. instead of wanting more.
Theses thoughts are getting in my head! I swear.
Don't be negative be positive. you'll never have what you want. until you learn how to get it.
Don't play tricks with me! You..you...mind? Sounds weird to think about.
The doctor called about my poisoning substance. He said it was belladonna? I called Nora to ask about this belladonna.
I call her
Hello Nora asks
I want to ask you about something
Is this about izzy
No
Okay....go on
I had to go to the hospital yesterday the doctor said it was a food poisoning that made me sick
WHAT TYPE OF POISONING
Well....I just got his message and he said it was belladonna? I thought you might know more about it?
I do.
Can we talk tomorrow...not today...I won't be at class
Why? And okay sure
Because of what had happen between izzy and me
I heard izzy told me.....Im sorry for what's going on....I'll tell you what I mean by that when we talk? Okay
Okay :(: