#teamAlpha

Last goodbye

I thought that I've been hurt before
But no one's ever left me quite this sore
Your words cut deeper than a knife
Now I need someone to breathe me back to life

Got a feeling that I'm going under
But I know that I'll make it out alive
If I quit calling you my lover
Move on

You watch me bleed until I can't breathe
I'm shaking, falling onto my knees
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
I'm tripping over myself,
I'm aching begging you to come help
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches

Just like a moth drawn to a flame
Oh, you lured me in, I couldn't sense the pain
Your bitter heart cold to the touch
Now I'm gonna reap what I sow
I'm left seeing red on my own

Got a feeling that I'm going under
But I know that I'll make it out alive
If I quit calling you my lover
Move on

You watch me bleed until I can't breathe
I'm shaking, falling onto my knees
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
I'm tripping over myself,
I'm aching begging you to come help
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches

[3x]
Needle and the thread,
Gotta get you out of my head
Needle and the thread,
Gonna wind up dead

Needle and the thread,
Gotta get you out of my head, get you out of my head

You watch me bleed until I can't breathe
I'm shaking, falling onto my knees (falling on my knees)
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches (and I'll be needing stitches)
I'm tripping over myself,
I'm aching begging you to come help (begging, "Baby, please.")
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches

(And now that)
I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
(And now that)
I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
Megan always has her music up so loud the sleep under the stars night was awesome I loved it so much until Megan came but it's okay and fine now. But I hope Megan gets better and I'll let her listen to her music as loud and long until people complain. The thing is that everyone has a deep dark secret even if they don't show it or show it to much...I want to ask Megan why she acts happy but depress we someone says something that she doesn't like? So today is that day I ask her....even if it makes her really upset by it.
"Megan" I say to get her attention
"Yes" I hear Megan say as she turns down the music
"I want to ask you a question"
"Okay"
"No matter how hard it is just tell me"
"Okay? I will"
"Why are you depress and unhappy whenever someone says or does something you don't like? I know emotions but that is more than that to you, just tell me why??"
"My mother die when I was 6 and my dad committed suicide 2 years later my step parents took care of me? And I was spoiled because they're rich and I was upset by everything because everything reminded me of my parents. There I told you! Don't tell everyone about this even will or suicide call people if you do I'll hang myself and say it was your fault because it was you lied. Just don't act like I'm not okay even know I'm not but just act like everything was before I told you?"
"Bless your soul, I'm I'm sorry, I won't tell anyone I swear" than I ran into the bathroom
"I'm going to take a shower" I say to Megan
"Okay" she says back
I take a shower I cry because what I all said to Megan she's dealing with hard times......I fell horrible......I cry even more, I cry in the shower because no one can hear you
1:00PM
I make plans with will and I asked Megan to see if she wants to come with us but she says no
"Megan are you sure?"
"I am positive"
"Okay when I come back I better not see that bathroom door locked"
"That won't happen"
"Good"
"Don't forget to ask about his friends?"
"I won't and I have a better idea come with us!!"
"Why??? No!"
"Yes please Megan please do it for me? Come on I saved your life you can meet new people?"
"Okay fine"
"See you feel better already since you told me what happened? If you didn't you would've went to that bathroom because of what I said"
"Oh I guess so? I didn't think of it?"
"That's because you told me. You had no more secrets"
"I feel good"
"Those wounds are healing faster than you realized"
"They're and it feels good to be not so depress, I'm glad to have a friend like you"
"Yes, you are" I laugh
"I am very lucky"
"Will is picking us up"
"You already told him going now?"
"No he's going to be surprised!"
"Really? I'll look awkward"
"nah"
"Are you sure?
"Positive"
"Okay I'll be ready to see him and his friends"
"That's the positive road to go on"
"What?"
"Your heading on track, right course"
"Oh okay I kinda see where you're going with this"
I heard a knock on the door and I'm guess it is will? And it was.
"Hey" will said
"Hey,Megan is going with us!" I say with a happy face
"Oh wait what? She is? That is great! I told my friends that you had a roommate and they wanted to meet her and I said I don't know if her friend would want to go? That is great!"
"Great!" I said
"Megan!" I shouted
"Okay hang on I need to put on this plaid Around my waist"
Megan came out wearing a grey plain crop top a plaid red shirt around her waist and shorts with black converse shoes and her glasses that are fake but you know some people like that
"Megan I know my friend Ryan wears plaid shirts a lot and I guess you have something in common with somebody you don't even no yet" said will
I can see Megan getting along with this Ryan guy. The only thing in my mind is.....is that I hope Megan....dont go into a relationship when she first meets them.....I Couldn't live with her no more... she promised me! And if she breaks it I'll leave I won't tell people what happened in her life no I'll just leave. I think all this in my head and I snap back into reality and realized that we're here at a café?
"Will why are we at a café?" I had to ask
"The guys are coming here"
"Oh?"
"What?"
"Nothing I jus didn't know this place had a café shop or people who go to this place. I like cafés. I don't like this one. It looks like a tornado had hit this place. But I don't have a need to judge"
"True"
"Izzy what is a fake eye ball" Megan ask
"What!" I said I went up to see the menu and it was a Halloween menu?
"Megan this is a Halloween menu"
"Is it?"
"Will nice place to pick"
"I didn't know it said it had 5 stars"
"Where did you get that idea from?"
"On google maps"
I went to see on Google maps
"Will, will, will......will you looked at the wrong one and it says a half star"
"Oops. wow a half star who would vote for a star?
"I know this place is a dump, and I can clearly see that the wallpaper is peeling off"
"You are right lets leave"
"Wait is a waiter even here?"
"I don't see one"
I went outside and there's a sign that says for free. Megan sees the sign to and starts to laugh. and laugh then falls to the ground. it wasn't that funny. but now I think she was laughing so hard because she had her phone in her hand.
"Megan what is so funny?"
"This picture" she said but I couldn't hear her with all her laughing.
"Hey" I heard from behind me
I was smiling until I turned around. It might seem like it didn't like them know I was trying to be serious.
"Hey I'm izzy" I said to both of the guys
"I'm Ryan" said the one with a plad jacket on with a white shirt
"I'm Jordan" said the one with pretty green eyes
"Nice to meet you two"
"Nice to meet you to" Jordan said
Megan finally got up from laughing
"Oh there're people already here?"
Oh my god Megan didn't you her them? Or was your laughing to loud for you?
"I'm Megan"
"I'm Jordan"
"I'm Ryan"
I don't know if Megan is awkward right now or?
"We have to walk" said will
"I can see that this place is.......yeah" said Jordan
Megan laughs
I was standing there awkwardly I realized that Megan is wear shorts? Haha and she stab a knife in her leg? Why would she fake that? What hell? She..she....she lied to me!!!!! Ima tell her I'm pissed off when we get home!
"So let's start walking." Why else would I say it for?
As soon as we started to walk Ryan went by Megan's side and talked but then Jordan walked over to will and started to talk. So yeah I'm a loner right now...But I didn't want to talk to anyone right now just because Megan lied even worse she lied about stabbing herself with a knife I know it won't hurt to lie at some point in life but faking a stab?
As we all walked under trees I look up and stare up and skip and was listening to music every time some looked at me I was faking a smile. No one knew what I was thinking the only thing that they're were thinking was that I was okay. But the truth be told I wasn't. Not even close. Before I knew it I was lost. How? I don't know? Maybe from looking up at the trees. But wouldn't they had notice I was heading the wrong direction? Or what? All I knew was walking now until I find road or I didn't feel like walking. But I saw someone they got closer and it was will haha are they trying get us together? If they're I'm falling for it. I like him...But I don't know if he likes me?
"Will what are you doing?"
"Trying to find you?" He started to blush
I think that he likes me and he's trying to make an excuse to seem like he's trying to find me. But I think he wanted this whole walking meeting friends plan to get closer to me. Well played my friend well played