#teamAlpha

When I get bored I draw-said Nora

I ran straight to the bathroom and locked the door! Grabbing the bloody razor and cutting my arm again and again like I did last time. But this time I cut deeper blood was everywhere.
Izzy screams
"Wait megan! I didn't mean to take out my anger on you. don't cut yourself"
Her saying "don't cut yourself" made me cut even more
"Your going to lose a lot of blood. stop"
to late for that. I finally stop because my razor is dull stupid cheap razor
"Megan come out, unlock the door"
I tried to unlock it but I was to weak I fall when I got up. I used my every breathe until I give out I say
"Help"
"What!!!!?"
"HELP" I say with a lump in my throat
I start to get pal, I turn into a vampire then back into a human I did that for 5 times? Or more I don't remember. I fall to the floor with a loud thump. Izzy freaks out
"MEGAN!"

Beep.....beep.... beep.. I here my heart feeling like I'm going to die. Its all because of taylor I'm going to die because of him. why? That's the question that everyone is going to ask. I hear izzy calling 911 I think it's to late for help. Hope got me nowhere. I got enough strength to get up and unlocked the door I hear izzy running to me
"Megan!!!!!!!"
"Don't hate me"
Her face tells me that I'm stupid for saying that
"There's there's a pool of blood megan, why?"
I stay speechless like I have enough breath for that.
"There's help on the way"
I think to myself am I loser? Am I lame for this? Am I going to die? All theses thoughts came in my mind like they did before but now theses are just negative thoughts theses thoughts don't help, they're worse. Please I won't do it again, I won't lay a razor of a knife on my skin again I want to live...........................
I realize that all I'm seeing is black. Am I dead or sleeping, nightmareing I don't Know? I wake up, well I'm not dead. I see a lot of cords hooked up to machines and other hospital stuff.
"Megan are you sure you didn't poison yourself before?" The same doctor asks
"NO!"
"Megan c'mon now why would you be doing this to yourself"
"She don't know, the belladonna has affects like suicide a lot of it most of it or eating a lot or not eating at all but it's the first one" said Nora (I don't really know what belladonna is? All I know is it's a poison, so this is all fake)
"Who are you? And who did you get in here!" Asked the doctor
"I'm Nora and I know why she's doing this, I just told you! I have a feeling that your not steal doctor"
"Are questioning my work?"
"Yeah"
"Get out"
"No!"
Now he turned into a vampire
I gasp so loud me told me to shut up
"Nora get out"
"No!"
"I'm going to tear you apart"
I watch like this is a tv show
The doctor went into his cabinet and grab a knife he held it against Nora's throat
"No! Stop" I say with what voice I had
He started to choke her
I get up but I fall to the ground so hard I felt like the Grand Canyon as breaking into many pieces.
"Your nothing but a loser meagn"
"That's not good to say her, plus the belladonna has a affect"
That kicked me so hard I pull all the cords and everything attached to me
"I want to die!" I scream
"but know one cares?" I say
"Meg" said Nora
"No! I'm suck if it. stick that knife in me. NOW!" I tell the doctor not thinking of what I said
"Okay" he leaned In and tried to kill me
"Bitch please" said Nora and used magic and made him go to sleep
"Megan!!!" She snaps at me
"I'm sorry, would you like to you know kill me??"
She got all wide eye
"What!!!!!!!!! Megan come with me, I have to drain this belladonna out. I need the old megan back"
I look at the knife
"Don't think about it"
The worse thing is I knew the knife was up there I wanted him to use it in me. now I want to use it on me. I'm thinking about it but my other self of me is telling me hell know megan you can do better after all this is over.
Nora hurried up and tooled me back at her witchy cabin and used magic to cure me.
24 hours later
I feel sore, why? Where am I?
"Megan don't you remember what happened"
"Know? What happen"
"That's good you don't need to know"
I saw Nora texting izzy telling her to forget what the belladonna had done to megan me megan? Or a different megan? There's only one megan? Or am I going crazy
"I remember" taylor oh know
"What?"
"Nothing I said I remember that I had homework"
"Okay? Wait what homework?"
"It's nothing"
"Um okay"
I went back to my dorm izzy isn't there. I went into the bathroom to see a pool of blood I stepped into it like its water but know it's a nightmare all over again. I took a hot shower so hot I have tiny burns all over me. awful. I'm still weak. pal. My hair is stained red by the blood it'll probably go away no problem. I stay up and watched a movie the purge. Izzy came into the dorm with me in it for once
"Hey megan what you watching?" Izzy asks
"It's over"
"Ok? What were you just watching"
"I don't remember"
"Megan" she snaps
"The purge"
"Okay was that hard?"
I looked at her funny. I am not a 5 year old kid
"Izzy I remember what happened but it's different because I don't have affects in real life. and it's not cause there's still blood in the bathroom or in my hair. it's from Nora I saw her text to you. it's okay I don't want to ignore the fact I had a suicide moment and there's still cuts on my skin how can you guys explain what this is in my arm if you guys didn't want me to remember"
"Okay does Nora no"
"No"
"Megan you have to tell her tomorrow"
"Okay, I know"
"Okay good"
Morning
fresh start. I wonder if anyone knew that I had belladonna in me? I hope not. I wore a black sleeve shirt with black pants, black converse shoes, with a black head band. classic black? Am I right?
I left before izzy so I can walk into the woods and walk by myself.
"Megan were are you going" izzy asks before I can leave dang it.
"I just want.....to walk by myself"
"Okay, bye"
Left as soon as possible. as I walk I see some one? Not taylor thank god.
"Hey" it sounded like a guys voice
"Hey who are you" I asked first
"My name is Conner you"
"Megan do you go to college"
"No I finished last year"
"Oh"
"Want to be friends"
"Sure"
He's so nice is this real
"So you knew taylor?"
I knew this wasn't real
"Yeah he's a beeatch"
"Okay" he laughs as if I was joking. but no. this not a joke.
"Can you not laugh"
He stops
"I have to leave" I tell him but not wanting to
"Can I have your number?"
"Uh uh" I sturdier as I try to say yes!
"Um yeah here" I write my number and gave it to him
"Thanks"
"Yeah, your cute" oh no what did I just say. I didn't meant the last part oh no.
"What?"
"Nothing"
"Did you say I was cute?"
"Yeah but I thought it in my head it didn't mean it to come out of my mouth"
"I'm glad you said it instead of thinking about it"
"I'm sorry Conner but I have to get to my class"
"Bye"
"Bye"
I'm an hour late! Great. just what I need.
Nora looks at me.
"Megan why are you late" asked the teacher
"I was walking through the woods and"
"And what?"
"I saw a cute boy. Do we really have to talk about this?"
"See me after class"
"Okay"
"Okay class you have to draw the person next to you. have fun"
"Nora you have to draw my ugly face"
"Megan izzy told me that you remembered"
"I did but it's okay"
"That's good to hear"
I drew Nora but ugly. but Nora drew me! It looks exactly like me!! Especially my hair color
"Wow Nora this looks like me"
"Thanks"
"Why did we have to draw? This is fashion design not no draw design" asked a random student. before the teacher said what this was about Nora said
"We had to draw this because we have to see textures of the face? And design is all about that. duh?"
"Thanks Nora"
"Show off" I heard some people whisper under there breath
"Stop! Just stop!" I say to them
"Oh look we have a badass over here"
"Stop it you biznatch"
"A what?"
I rolled my eyes
"It's not nice to roll your eyes"
"And it's not nice to say things under your breath too"
"Point taken"
Bell ranged
"Megan a word"
Oh god
"What?"
"Don't be late again. if so your going to be in trouble"
"Okay okay"