Craving Russo

CHAPTER ONE

"Okay Miss Rose, ready to begin"

"Do I even have a choice?"

"Now tell me about your past"

"it's all in the file"

"Yes, but I want to hear it from you"

"Okay, I was raped at the age of nine by my cousin who is 7 years older than me, sexually assaulted by my childhood neighbour and also his friends, I was used and bullied throughout my life, I would cry myself to sleep, tried suicide didn't work, whenever I feel pain, I think as I deserve it as I have comminated sin."

My therapist's eyes start to fill up with tears, I knew I was a bit blunt in describing my past, yet she and my brother Kamal are the only ones to know about my past, the only reason my brother knew because he, unfortunately, witnessed my suffering and had no choice in telling him everything, Kamal suggested me in seeing a therapist because I could never tell my parents because I feel that they will blame me because I let it happened and didn't stop.

"Please don't start with the tears it was 8 years ago, don't make me feel like shit" I roll my eyes as I already have to deal with my brother, every time I point a gun at my head, I have no tears left to cry and Kamal always enters in at the worst time and stops me from ending my life.

"I'm sorry that is unprofessional of me" she wipes her tears and continues to write in her little notepad, "let's continue, now Miss Rose... ca"

I raised my palm in the air to stop her from talking "please don't call me Miss Rose, it sounds like father when he's pissed about something.... Just call me Celine"

"If that makes you comfortable okay...Celine, tell me was there at least one good memory throughout your young adult life"

One name, that one name that never left my mind it has haunted me my entire life Alexander Russo, no one knew about our, how do you say a 'relationship'. The state that he left me in was unforgiven, yet he was constantly on my mind.

"One, sort of, I don't know"

"Was it a special someone?"

"I wouldn't say special, but he made me feel that there is more to life and to take risks with no regrets"

"What happened to him, is he still in your life?"

No tears, no emotions displayed, no thought in my head

"I must go I have an important matter to attend to" as I grab my bag about to walk out the door "Celine wait" my hand stops on the doorknob and I stare at the ground, anger, anger, anger was what I was feeling and I needed to control my anger before I end up blowing this entire building.

"Will I see you again next week?"

"I'll see how I go, as you know I have a busy life"

Before she could say another word, I left and headed towards the elevator, my patience grows thin as I decided to take the stairs, I was on the 30th-floor meaning I have a long way down, at least I hope it will calm me down, yet my anger grew more as I reach to my car and started driving. I didn't care about the speed limit as the police cannot do anything to me, as I have the police department in the palm of my hands. Within ten minutes I arrived at the warehouse as my men bow their heads I rushed into the building and grabbed the first weapon I see, my favourite dagger.

As I walk down to the basement, rows of cells leading down the long corridor, filled with disgusting people ready to be tortured, as I can't wait to hear the beautiful sounds of screaming and begging from their weak souls, as I spot Kamal talking to the guards the sound of my heels hitting the cold floors as it echoes throughout the halls grabs his attention, his smile turns into a straight line as he knew that hellfire is about to raise.

"I take it the session didn't go well" I know Kamal is trying to do what's best for me yet as I feel I don't deserve his time.

"Listen, Kamal, I don't want to argue with you right now, I just want to get the job done and I'll be on my way into la-la land" he knows he won't win.

I walk up and down the halls in choosing my next victim, yet I already knew from the moment I walked in, I just like to tease the others in fear. I stop in front of the cell inside is the one and only Angelo Dawn, son of the Russian Mafia he tried to put hands on me and tried to make me sleep with him, it flicked a switch in me, so I knocked him out and now he looks weak all tied up naked yet still asleep.

"Guards" my men enter the room and grabbed hold of Angelo and one punched him in forcing him to wake up. He woke up screaming and looked around and his eyes found mine, as I smile grew on my face knowing that I was going to have fun with this blank canvas.

"Celine what the fuck, why am I naked? Oh, you dirty little girl" before I say anything Kamal walks in a shoots his leg only to leave him in pain as death is far away for him.

"Don't you dare speak to my sister like that you disgusting pig" Kamal spits at him and shoots his other leg, music to my ears, the screams make me excited for joy.

"Brother please, this is my toy to play with" I gave my guards the look as they left, now it was just me and Angelo left in the room. After 10 minutes of fun, I walk out with my once white crisp top now covered in beautiful red.

"Is he dead?"

"Not yet, he passed out as I start drawing lines on his stomach get the doc don't let him die yet I still want a little fun with him"

"As you wish" the guards all on their knees as a sign of respect, I loved these moments it reminds me of how much power I hold.