Craving Russo

CHAPTER FIVE

I lost my appetite as I pushed my plate away from me and tried to not speak as I feared that I would break in front of him, and I didn't want to give him the satisfaction. My mother could tell that I was feeling uncomfortable, I sit there with my eyes crossed trying to not look beside me.

"Well, if you could excuse me, I must rest for a while as I had a long morning"

Before anyone could say anything, I walked too fast as my life depended on it, as I got to my room I ran into the bathroom and vomited my guts out, all the memories were hitting me like a truck, getting raped, violence and Alexander. After laying on my bathroom floor I finally got up, as I left my bathroom, I see a tall figure 6,4 at my desk and I knew it was him, I grabbed hold of my dagger and placed it by my side. I was known to be the silent killer you would know I was in the same room.

As I got closer to his body, I remember his scent like it was yesterday, the scent that could bring me to my knees without a second thought, without thinking I placed my dagger onto his back, yet I couldn't stab him.

"Do it I deserved it"

His voice that fucking voice, hearing his voice was everything, my heart melted for him, I lost my voice, however, I stayed strong, with the dagger still pointed at his back, he quickly turned and held my wrist in the air as our face were only a few inches apart, his hot breath on my skin was enough for me to throw myself at him, but I couldn't let him win, I grabbed a hold of his leg managed to push him on to the ground as I climbed on top to pin on the ground our eyes locked his eyes were blood red, was he crying? It can't be he doesn't even have a heart. I bring my dagger to his throat I had the courage to speak.

"What the fuck are doing in my room?"

No words, I grew out of patients as I Deeping the hold of my dagger to leave a little scar on his throat drops of blood starts to drip down his neck, he showed no emotions.

"ANSWER ME"

As I had enough of this silence, I got up from his touch I fixed myself and start walking to the door, I felt a pair of hands grabbed hard on my waist, he pulls me close for my back to hit his chest, I tried my best to not let a tear fall, I will not let him win.

"What do you want Alexander?"

"You" was all he could say.

He placed his head into my neck his hot breath sending chills down my spine I was so close to caving in until I have come back to reality, he cannot win, I kicked him hard enough to let loose his grip as I thought I was free he managed to pull me back and closing the door shut, my back against the door our eyes locked again his face came close, too close, however, I didn't have the energy to fight back anymore, we stand for what feels like forever, moments later his lips meet mine.

Anger, love was shown in the kiss, he didn't hesitate to hold back as he kisses me hard holding my waist tight my arms around his neck to deepen the kiss both of our emotions were all in this kiss, I missed his touch, his scent, his voice, hearing him moan in the kiss was enough to make my knees weak. Then reality hit me I pushed him away and managed to escape I ran into a random room trying to hold my thoughts.

What the hell happened? Why did I cave him? He knows I miss him? That's when I have come to the realisation I cannot let win, it was time to show him what kind of woman I am and what he had turned me into a fucking monster.