Still With You || jjk + kth

34| Grateful

"Are you sure about this?" Jeongguk asked Taehyung,who was fiddling with his fingers. 

He looked nervous, it was too obvious. 

Out on a Sunny day,Standing outside the graveyard where Seungho was. The warm breeze made him calm down a bit. Taking a few deep breaths,trying to calm himself down. He doesn't want to cry,he really doesn't. 

"Yeah,I have to. I can't be stuck in the past if I want to move forward,with you especially" Taehyung grabbed Jeongguk's hand almost immediately.

The younger one gave him a heart softening smile. He grabbed Taehyung by his head and kissed his forehead. Tightening the grip to hold his hand tighter. "I am proud of you,Taehyung. I am here for you,if it gets too much I'll still be here so let's go in" The older nodded as they both started to walk inside the graveyard.

Graveyards will never not be depressing. It's that one place on earth where you will find hopes and dreams that were never fulfilled. A place where many lose everything they ever had. Even on a bright day like this it still felt so solemn to be standing here. Knowing there's so many people around you who never got to live the life they wanted and you could be one of them one day.

Shaking off all the negative thoughts as they finally reached Seungho's gravestone. Jeongguk's eyes fell on what was written on his gravestone. 

In Loving Memory Of

Ahn Seungho

23/9/1995 - 12/4/2020 

A beloved Son,Brother & Lover 

He glanced over at Taehyung and the older man already looked seconds away from crying. His eyes narrowed with a frown on his face,burning holes with gaze. 

"It's so dusty and there are no flowers...I haven't come here at all,it's all my fault. If it was me instead of him,he would have made sure to clean it and put flowers everywhere" Taehyung mentioned.

"Taehyung...don't say it like that. It's not your fault. You weren't in the right space of mind for so long and now you finally found the courage to come here,it's alright. I'll leave you two alone,I'll be standing just right there" He pointed like a few feet away. 

Taehyung nodded as he watched Jeongguk walk away,giving a comforting smile to let him know of his presence. His eyes fell back onto the grave,he could feel someone just grabbed his heart and the grip just kept tightening around it. Taking one last deep breath as he started to talk.

"Hi...How have you been? I am sorry for not visiting you earlier,you left me so early I couldn't even realise what just happened" He scoffed,trying to fight back his tears. "The first year you left, I miss you so much,everyday I miss your presence,your touch,your comforting words. I felt like I'm losing myself without you and going crazy here. No one seemed to understand,telling me to move on. How can I move on when you are all I had?"

"I regret everything about that. I wish I just listened to you and didn't drive so recklessly,I wish I didn't have to see you die in my arms. That moment you don't even know how many times I asked the god to take me too with you. It got so hard to breathe someday,I loved you so much more than I thought I did. I have never told you this but I want to tell you now,I wanted to marry you...I even bought a ring,had it with me the whole week and just couldn't be brave enough to propose,I was going to ask you out after our last mission,I was ready but...you left before I could even a-ask" Taehyung felt tears leave his eyes,his heart rate was increasing and he was feeling low so low.

"I even tried to end myself...so many times. If it wasn't for hoseok,Jimin and even Jeongguk I wouldn't have been here. T-They all told me,you wouldn't want that and they are right,if you were here you would have told me to live my life to the fullest and m-move on from you and I h-hate you for that" His voice was breaking out in the middle because he couldn't stop crying.