Let's cope up

How to accept

Can we be ever able to accept it? How?

My grandmother had married my grandfather when she was just 21. It was an affair marriage. They both were the heartthrob of their time. Everyone's desirable man & woman.

My grandfather's dominating aura. Manly, Matured, Responsible  behaviour are what attracted my granny.He was like a leader to the society & everyone used to love him as well as my granny.

Everything were going perfect untill my grandpa's dead body had been found on the train.
It happened right after three years after their marriage.

And in this three years my grandma was gifted with three childs. Well, my granny was three months pregnant with my mother when this took place.

So, what do you think?  She stopped living? Or she suicided taking all her kids life?

Tin saal ki married life mai. Tin bacche. Last wala aa bhi nehi paya bahar ki she became widow!  A widow! 

So, stop thinking ki life has been cruel with Shehnaaz only & this happened for the first time in this world.

I know for us..Sidnaazians no love story is as perfect as Sidnaz's. But the brutal truth is this is not true.

Sidnaaz 2 saal k bond mai jure the, unka socho jo 30/40 saal ek sath rehte ya phir newly wedded h jo phir apni partner kho dete hein.

Unki bhi to sapne hotey the ek dusre k sath?  Unka pyaar ka kam tha?  Nehi.

Yes, humlog bohot affect aur dusturb horahe hein. Shayed itna disturb hum humare dur k koi rishtedar k jane se bhi nehi hotey.

Pata hein kyu? Kyuki inka jo bhi tha humne iss lockdown mai bilkul pehle se jiya hein. Inko anzan se dost bante dekha hein, phir pyaar hotey dekha hein, phir sapne sazate dekha hein. Hum itna connect krliye the unke sath khudko ki ye ab personal loss jaisa lagne laga hein.

Lekin sach isse badal nehi jayega ki aisa duniya mein pehle bhi huya hein aur log cope up krliye hein. Agey bar gaye hein.

After 1 years socho? Ghau bhar  hi jayega. Hn, pura to kabhi nehi bharega but jitna bhi bharega utna tumhe itna weak nhi feel krwayega jitna ab feel kar rahi ho. Aur ye sab k sath hotey aya hein.

Hn shayed, tumhari ye pehli experience hein ki itna paas se jinko jante ho wo chale gaye. But dears, kya tum kabhi nehi jaoge upar?
Tum mein aur Siddharth mai pharak ye hoga ki tumhara wakt nehi aya. But jana sabko hein ekdin.

So, jitne din yaha ho kya aise dukh mai jioge?

“Ye kya hogaya? Ek raat mein kyu sab khatam hogya"

Aise sochna chor do. Kyuki duniya mein jaha bhi death huya hein sabka life aise ghum gaya hein. Don't make it something impossible.

Ek raat mein hi sab khatam hojata hein. Allah na kare, tumhe kuch hojaye to kya ek raat mein sab khatam nhi hoga?  Ya phir tumhari apne k sath te hojaye (Inshallah kabhi nehi hoga) to kya wo dard tumhe ekdin face krna nehi hoga?

Ye pehli baar face kar rahe ho isliye itna dard horaha hein. Believe me, life mein aise Moment sabko face karna hota hein.

But duniya khatam nehi hojata. Chal ta hi jata hein. Bohot Sidhearts ne iss sach ko apnake memes banake khush rehne koshish kar rahe hein. Wat fo you think wo kam pyar krte hein Siddharth ko?

Nehi, hum Sidnaazians se bohot pyaar karte hein. But unhone iss sach ko apna liya hein aur trauma ko life ka ek part samjhke agey badh rahe.

Phir tum akele kyu dukh bhari life guzaroge? Kyu nehi apna sakte?  Shehnaaz ka kya hoga ye soch ke? Wo Shehnaaz Siddharth Shukla banna chahti thi ye sochke?

Next part mein wo bhi explain karungi. Ye part ko dimaag mai bithao pehle.

Hum sab cope up krlenge.Believe me.

To be continued......