compilation of my literary pieces

i'll find you

I'LL FIND YOU

"Just fight a little longer, my friend
It's all worth it in the end
But when you got nobody to turn to
Just hold on, and I'll find you
I'll find you
I'll find you
Just hold on, and I'll find you~"

Raz sang while hugging me to comfort me. I feel okay when she do that to me. She's my bestfriend, my human diary and also my guardian angel. She's always there by my side through thick and thin. She still stay no matter how hard it is to be with me.

"Thank you, Raz. I'm so lucky to have a bestfriend like you." I said and her mouth curved into a smile.

"No worries, I'm just always here whenever you need me alright?" Then I nodded and smiled at her too.

***

"Raz, I need you..." I called her through the phone while crying silently.

[Why? What happened?]

"I'm not okay, so please... I need you..." I cried.

[But it's already 12 midnight Tha-] I cut off her words.

"I don't care! I need you here with me now... So please..." I begged her again, hoping that she would agree.

[Okay, I'm on my way. Where are you?] I feel delighted when she agreed.

"I'm here at my favorite spot as usual. I'll wait for you."

After a few minutes, she came running to me then she gave me a tight and warm hug. I cried again...

"Hush... Just cry it all out and you'll be okay." Then she slowly tapped my back to comfort me.

I release myself from her hug when I feel a bit okay. Then I tell her my problem and she understand my pain.

"Thank you, I thought you won't come." I said with teary eyes.

"I will always come anytime you need me."

"Thank you so much," I smiled genuinely. "Can you sing that song again to me?"

"Sure,Thalia." She smiled at me then she started singing.

"Just fight a little longer, my friend
It's all worth it in the end
But when you got nobody to turn to
Just hold on, and I'll find you
I'll find you
I'll find you
Just hold on, and I'll find you~"

She always sing that song to me. I feel safe whenever I hear it.

"Do you feel okay now?" I nodded at her question.

"Yep, again thank you so much." I smiled then I hugged her.

Then we go home that night.

***

"Thalia, wake up!" I heard Mom yelled so I open my eyes and saw her sitting on my bed.

"What now, Mom?" I asked her while yawning.

"I have something to tell you."

"What is it?" I asked her again.

"It's about Raz, your bestfriend." There's this sad expression on her face that made me worried.

"W-what about her Mom?" I tried not to stutter.

"She's gone." I feel my world stopped when I heard that. "She died in a car accident on her way home." I feel the cold wind embracing me now.

"N-no... that can't be true! Y-you're just lying Mom right?" I hope she was just lying but she didn't answer me and shook her head instead.

My tears start streaming down to my face.

I k-killed her... I murdered her by my selfishness.

I was so selfish that I didn't think of her, of how she feels while she's so selfless.

Because of my selfishness, I lose her.