"anonymous" love

notebook

*kazuha pov*

4nemo has yet another photoshoot. this time it's for a sponsor we're doing before our comeback, and i believe that's a good thing for once because i have a question i need to ask one of the workers.

we arrive to the place and head inside. hm, that's odd, i don't even see this person.. maybe.. maybe their not here yet.

we all get a dressing room and put the outfits on, this time, aether went first for his photos.

"is there something on your mind, kazuha?" our leader, barbatos, asks me.

"i'm fine, just thinking" i tell him, that is technically the truth. "ok, have fun i guess!" he says before giggling and walking over to his boyfriend.

a few minutes pass and i see aether come in and switch places with xiao.

then another 15 minutes pass and xiao comes back and switches with barbatos, that means it's my turn next.

he comes back a few minutes later.

"kazu! your turn!" he says sitting down. i go into the room and i see the person i'm looking for, our photographer.

after a few click clicks later, i was heading back until i remembered the question i needed to ask him, "uhm, scaramouche, i have a question"

he looks up from his camera, "ah, yes, kazuha?", "do you know anyone from inazuma but lives in liyue who's name is kunikuzushi?" i ask.

"i'm sorry, but no.. why?" he tells me, "just curiosity. seeya" i reply before walking out.

i was about to go back into the room where everyone else was until i realized i left my hairtye in there due to my hair having to be down for the pictures.

as i walk up to the door i hear a voice, someone, singing?

i put my ear to the door to hear the lyrics more clear.

[once again, my song😩]

"you were my once upon a time, but not my happy ending"

wow..

"you were my first time,my first love"

a love song, eh?

"but you you weren't my happily ever after"

oh..

"don't know what to do or what comes after.."

i didn't know he had someone he loved like that once..

"i've lost touch with reality, don't wanna take a break but"

he's.. an amazing singer..

"it hurts..."

his voice..

"disney's heartbreak.."

where the fuck did disney come into this song?

i then hear him actually talk.

"nope, that one won't work either. ughhhhh" he says to himself.

i quietly walk into the room and realize that he's actually writing lyrics, "sorry for eavesdropping but you have some serious talent" i say, breaking the silence in the room.

he shuts the notebook before looking my way, "there- there wasn't anything to eavesdrop." he says looking down.

"your song? the "disney's heartbreak" one, that.. that was just incredible.." i say, probably having stars in my eyes at this point. he stands up from the chair he was sitting in  and looks at me, "that's one of the worst ones. you can stop lying to me." he says looking kind of disappointed at himself.

"well, if that's bad, may i hear another song?" i ask, lowkey flirting with him. i think he got the flirting part because his cheeks got a little bit red.

"i won't sing it but i'll show you the lyrics. with that satisfy you?" he replies, "of course."

i walk over to him as he opens his notebook.

"sorry for the scribbled out parts.." he tells me before getting to the right page.

&lies - f̸a̸c̸3̸l̸e̸s̸s̸

[b̸e̸b̸e̸]
liar liar pants on fire
i know you don't admire
but i still love you
I̸t̸s̸ a̸l̸m̸o̸s̸t̸ l̸i̸k̸e̸ a̸ t̸a̸t̸t̸o̸o̸
w̸h̸o̸ k̸n̸e̸w̸?̸

[a̸l̸a̸t̸u̸s̸]
one dark midnight
staring at the moon
wondering how far we could've gone
isn't that right?
it was one dark night...

[b̸e̸b̸e̸]
(spoken)
when taylor said "you're a liar and pathetic"
i really fucking felt that.

[k̸u̸n̸i̸]
12:00am staring at the screen
wondering what the fuck you mean
starting to figure it all out..

[b̸e̸b̸e̸]
i trusted you,
your words,
&lies
you lie
you lie to me..

[k̸u̸n̸i̸]
finding new ways to lie
you told me why
but it was another lie
i'm not surprised

[a̸l̸a̸t̸u̸s̸]
my whole life was trusting you
now i feel emotionally abused
god damn i feel so used
i feel like a toy that was left in the rain
which of us is the one to blame?

[b̸e̸b̸e̸]
12:00am staring at the screen
wondering what the fuck you mean
starting to figure it all out..
i didnt expect it to end like this
i didn't even get the kiss
oh baby...

[k̸u̸n̸i̸]
i trusted you
and all your words
and all you said
it's all in my head
you &lies

"scaramouche, this.. this is amazing!" i say, honestly impressed. "it's.. it's not much." he says closing the notebook and putting it in his bag.

"well, i have to go now, bye, kazuha." he says picking his bag up and walking out.

am i going crazy, or did i see the name alatus being scribbled out?

quick update, hey, it's me, author sins !

1: thank you so much for 3k+ reads !!

2: i'm sorry if the updates are slow i'm sick and i'm also dealing with really bad gender dysphoria the past few days so that's that ig😔🤚🏻.

3: but, i will be trying to update it whenever i can !

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