"anonymous" love

a 4nemo tour p4/3, 2, 1

3 days until date[i skipped a few days bc nothing rlly happened]

*scara pov*

like how it's been the past few days, jeans wakes me up, and we get to a concert hall, stay there for a while, a few food breaks here and there yadah yadah yadah.

but, tonight, the 4 bands and managers are going to a restaurant to celebrate the first completely sold out show.

"i'll stay and watch the busses." i say to jean as we pull up to the restaurant, she giggles, "you already have a seat, you're coming inside with us"

"i am? but why? i'm not a manager?" i tell her, visibly confused. "you're not, but, you are on tour with us." she says getting out of the car.

i follow her in and we get our seats.

the others got to the place a few minutes after us.

the place was packed with sounds of people talking, utensils against plates, faint music in the background. but me? i don't think i've talked since i ordered my food.

i'm not one for social events, or a lot of people being around me at once.

i get cut off in my head by a voice from next to me, "you okay?" the 18 year old boy with a ponytail asks me, "uh, yeah, kazuha, i'm fine. im just not used to so many people" i tell him with a slight reassuring smile. "since both of us are done eating we can go outside for a bit, only if you want of course" he says with a calming, sincere smile.

"thanks kazuha, but i'll be ok." i tell him, "well, the offer is always on the table" he says before getting interrupted by aether trying to figure something out.

god he's perfect.

(timeskip to later that night)

me and jean are just hanging out in the front with silence like always, she decides to talk, "so, kunikuzushi, i have a question".

"and that is?"

"do you have that special person yet?"

i get thrown back at that random question, "what?". "you know, like a girlfriend, boyfriend, or even a partner" she says, "n-no i know what you meant but that was random"

"well do you?"

"no."

"do you have your eye on anyone?"

i hesitate to answer, "maybe?", "well that's nice, have you guys ever gone out on a date?" she asks

oh fuck

the date

it's in like 3 days, less then.

"no but we are going on one in like 3 days, oh my god" i say out loud, now looking like i just saw a ghost. "why are you scared? do you not trust them?" she asks, now being concerned, "well.. long story."

"i'm all ears if you wanna talk"

"it might get me fired?"

"i won't tell"

"fine."

i start the story, "well, on instagram i never show my face because i want people to know that i'm, well, me and not a male look-a-like of eternity member "ei"."

"i decided one day that i'll comment of a picture of a 4nemo member, to which he replied and we ended up dming."

"he doesn't know who i am, he knows his photographer as "scaramouche" but this random online faceless guy as "kunikuzushi".. and i think the feelings are mutual? but then again he likes this faceless "kunikuzushi" instead of actual me."