Sandbox hatred

Are you falling in love?

Jaydens POV:

I woke up with a fuzzy memory of last night. Did I drink?

Shooting pain through my head. "Ow ow ow" I whisper. Yep I definitely drank.

Carmen stirs in her sleep next to me. Shit I think I woke her up.

The memories start coming back.

The kitchen counter

Me kissing her neck

My hands nearing dangerously close to that ✨forbidden spot.✨

A/n: BAHAHA IM SORRY

Oh no. Did I go to far. Yes you did... she's gonna think you're like.... Nick..

I sadden.

Carmen awakes and rubs her eyes sleepily. She blinks before looking at me. "Morning" she yawns.

I look at her sadly and it seems to concern her. She did just wake up so she's slightly startled.

"I'm so sorry for drinking, remind me to never drink again and I must have made you so uncomfortable, I don't even know why I did that, I'm so so sorry and I understand if you're not interested in being my friend anymore." I rambled and sat there in bed contemplating most things.

She chuckled. "Don't go all soft on me now? You seemed pretty confident last night."

Carmen joked and I pinched the bridge of my nose.

She grabbed my chin and I froze. " You may have stepped over the boundaries of just friends and it may have been slightly concerning, but I would never leave someone like you Jayden. You're the greatest friend to have and you don't have to say sorry. You were very unstable."

I looked into her eyes and she let go of my chin to rub her sleepy eyes yet again. I smile and engulf her in a hug. She carefully put her hand in my hair.

I'm crushing.

You're such an idiot Jayden.

How have you not realized these feelings before.

Her face, her hair, her scent, her handwriting, her style, her taste in music, the books she likes reading, her art, her eyes, her skin, her favorite color, her favorite number, everything about her I'm so fascinated with. I love everything about her.

I cringed at my thoughts.

"You okay?" Carmen asks. "Oh! Yeah I'm fine. Just thinking." Dammit I mentally hit myself in the forehead about five times. "Thinking about what Jayden?" She asks. "Nothing important." I say as quickly as I can blurt out. "Okay.." she says. Yeah she definitely doesn't believe me.

She went to get up.

"Where you going?" I ask. "To call the school and tell them we were hanging out last night and caught the flu." She looked at me and fake coughed before walking out of the room.

"That was a really bad fake cough by the way." I yell from the other room. I hear her laugh.

I love that laugh.

A/n: Shut up your gay is showing.

But I'm straight. I thought to myself. I think I'm straight? I don't know at this point. What would happen if your dad finds out... he would kick me out. Or worse... he would hurt me.

A/n: bestie got some daddy issues right here. *the neighborhood starts playing in the background*

Carmen came back into the room and stood in the doorway looking at me. "They actually believed me!" She said.