Paint A Picture On Me

Viente

Kellin text me constantly all night, asking when he could come over for dinner. His pep was adorable, but seriously? I will ban him from having any coffee ever. I finally tell him to come join us for dinner and he called me, screamed, and hung up. This boy is so weird.

Now, we sit in my room. The tv's on and Mike, Kellin and I are all gathered playing some racing game on my old PS2. Kellin's situated between my legs as we enthusiastically race down the track. Of course, leave it up to my boyfriend to find a way to make video gaming adorable. He makes little racing noise, such as screeching when he breaks and vvvrrrrrrrrrmm when driving. He also does this adorable thing where, on sharp turns, he'll turn the remote as if that would help him change direction faster.

Mike has to take frequent texting breaks, and happens to be having one right now. I take the chance to admire Kellin, memorizing each wave of his locks. I raise my fingers to his hair, playing with the soft strands. I then move to his chin, turning his face towards me. His eyes linger on the screen until he can't possibly see it anymore and he finally meets my gaze. My fingers trail down his soft cheeks, sliding with ease. His skin is like silk under the rough tips of my fingers. Proceeding this is his jawline, where my fingers skim along the bone.

"Alright guys, I'm out. I have trig. to do, so I'll see you tomorrow," Mike announces. We don't even mumble goodbyes, we're that caught up in this moment. When Mike closes the door, Kellin's eyes finally fall to my lips. My own shift down to his and I brush my thumb along his moist, smooth, perfectly pink lips. Like two delicate flower petals, awaiting the first rain.

"Kiss me," he whispers almost inaudibly. My body lurches forward as our lips mesh together, fitting like tile work. His lips mend with mine again and again, working up speed as we move along. His fingers find my body as his hands search my core. One of my hands rest on his cheeks as the other slips behind his back, pulling him onto my lap. He turns his body, moving his legs on either side of me, trapping me in a straddle.

My skins heats up and my body buzzes at the contact. Our mouths open and tongues come to join the party. My fingernails digs into the skin on his back as moans start to build up in my throat, not that I let any escape. Tongue is my weakness. If I could, I would kiss him all day and not mind one bit. He kisses me harder, more passionately as he slowly pushes his hips into mine. The tantalizing friction drives me up a wall as I kiss him even harder, swirling and twirling my tongue as the whole room hits record heat.

My brain finally kicks in when his cool fingertips graze my bare skinned sides, pushing up my shirt.

"Stop. Stop," I gasp, pushing him off my lap lightly. He stops instantly and sits on his knees between my legs, looking hurt. I never want to see that look. That heart wrenching sadness in his eyes where I watch as the ivory threads fray and unweave from his beautiful, azure irises. The guilt settles in my body for two reasons. a) I can't stand being the thing putting him down. And b) being that I actually wanted to go further with him. I actually considered taking advantage of him. Cute, sweet, Kellin completely unbeknownst to half the things about me. I can't do that, especially not to him. It'd be like I'm using him for sex, knowing all along it we aren't going to happen. I'm taking advantage of his body, using him and leaving him behind when I have to go. That isn't right. I can't do that.

"What's wrong? D-did I- Is it me?"

"No! No, Kellin. I like you a lot. A lot a lot, more than I should. I just. . .I feel like we're moving too fast," I say, taking his hands in mine. He sighs, trying to pull them away, but I just hold on tighter.

"But I. . .I like you a lot too. I want to take the next step with you. I want to do this."

"I know. I want to too. I really, really do." Kellin starts smilling brilliantly and both my heart and my dick jump at the sight of that amazing, toothy smile. "Not yet. Okay? Just a little longer."