*TW* self harm, suicide, blood, scars, curse words (like one, but still), use of the word cuts a lot, bodily harm, mental/emotional/physical pain, suicidal thoughts.
cuts
cuts on your arms
cuts on your wrists
cuts on your hands
cuts on your shoulders
cuts on your thighs
cuts on your legs
cuts on your feet
cuts on your stomach
cuts on your chest
cuts on your face
cuts everywhere
you can't stop the harm you do to yourself
you feel like you need to feel pain
not emotional
not mental
but physical
it keeps you away from your thoughts
you don't want to die
but at the same time you do
you harm your body
you leave scars all over
just so you get to feel something
numb
you feel so numb
you just want a feeling
anything
even if it's by harming your body
it's stupid
you know that
but why would you care
you just want to feel something
anything at all
not emotional
not mental
but physical
it's better than the thoughts in your head
they tell you to just end it all
take the pills
pull the trigger
jump
cut your veins
the thoughts are telling you to do it
but you don't want to
you want to fight
so you cut
even if it's dumb
it's how you cope
it keeps you from ending everything
it keeps you sane
it keeps you alive
you might get dizzy
but your still breathing
you like to look at the new cuts
and the old scars
it makes you realize that even if you cut
your still alive
your still human
you can still feel things
it sucks that cutting up your body helps
it sucks that it's the reason your still alive
it sucks that people get upset or mad at it
it sucks that you need to stop
it sucks that you relapsed after so long
it sucks that you can't stop now
it sucks that you realized how bad it is
before you just did it with no care
now your trying to be careful
but just one fuck up
and well it's over
you can easily end it
but you won't
you wanna be alive
you wanna live
even if you don't really
you can't hurt the people around you
so now you have to stop
even if it's hard
even if it hurts emotionally to stop
even if you wanna feel pain
not emotional
not mental
but physical
have a great day ~ Jaiy ❤️ (423 words).
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